grow in my relationship with Christ

To grow in the faith needs a consistent and daily fellowship of the master.It needs conscious effort that you always remind yourself of were you are going(heaven).Sometimes the the affairs of this life do obstructs us, but the bible say what shall it profit a man to gain the whole world and loses his soul.There is no profit when you will spend eternity in hell at the end,i think is better to forsake all and fellow Christ which has an eternal reward one day.I wish you a successful journey .i will welcome mails from concern ones.anytony2004@yahoo.com is my primary emails.

February marked the beginning of a swift trek off the straight and narrow that more or less continued since. It led me into a place I had never previously imagined myself in. Growing up in the church, and honestly having been “strong” in the past led to a false since of… security and caused me to, though I realize this was a subconscious belief at the time, believe that I would somehow be less susceptible to the draw of the world. Foolish, foolish thought. I have, in the last 5 1/2 months, really lost my way. I’ve gone so far away from God, I was almost on the polar opposite end from Christianity there for awhile, almost.

There are elements I’d like to not loose from the last few months… but I don’t know how to keep them and come fully back to God at the same time.. I can see incorporating them later, but they don’t fit with my current circumstances.

It’s amazing, all of this because I allowed one man to have way to much influence… all this because I met, dated, and unintentionally fell in love with someone that’s no good for me. (Noting that just prior to this, my self esteem had reached pretty near all time lows) He broke it off, because he saw what I refused to, that we are to different on this important issue for it to work well. He’s a hardcore Atheist.. I a Christian.. doesn’t make a good combination. I still love him though. He’s proving to be the most difficult factor in all of this. Even though he’s keeping his distance, because its easy to do over summer break, I know how to win him back, I could do it come this fall quarter if I choose to. Sometimes I miss him so much it’s hard not to decide to do just that. Other times I’m asking myself exactly which part it is I miss: Being stood up half the time (towards the end)? Having to make almost all the effort to get to him (we live about an hours drive away from each other) if I wanted to see him or even if he wanted to see me? All the lies? Being cheated on? Or any other number of the things of that nature. I know he’s absolutely no good, but he’s tempting as the devil himself.

I don’t know what all it’s going to take to come back, and stay that way, I know it wont be easy, and I know this “life” I’ve been trying to live that isn’t God-centered, isn’t working. I’ve been miserable for most of it, the amazing moments didn’t last, some of them made me feel worse in the end. The depression I’ve battled off and on the last 6 years rocketed itself front and center… it hasn’t been good. I’ve got climb out of this hole and get back to God, painful as it is to leave some of this, it’s amazing what you can become attached to, I know I have to do it. I can’t keep living like this.

the good news is, i’m getting closer
the bad news is, it’s really hard to let go of my old ways…REALLY hard=)

it makes me cry everytime..this is for anyone who has struggled in their faith(so pretty much ehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GwdTg9l_bIveryone. lol)

life w/o faith sucks! count me back in!

My husband and I are currently getting closer to Christ. We are praying more together. We are reading the bible more often. We discuss our spirituality, strongholds, and brainstorm on how we can aid others to grow more in their faith. I commend anyone who has this as one of their goals. Remember, “you can do all things through Christ” (Phil. 4:14).

Peace & Blessings,
Pam & Ivan Wade

it’s less about trying to understand God but more about being open to experience your faith, God, etc. you will experience how real it is even though it’s the most undefinable thing!

I’ve moved so far away from God. I keep sabotaging myself. I keep digging this stupid hole that just seems to keep getting deeper, and I didn’t bother to take a ladder with me. I can’t even hardly believe how bad some of the decisions I’ve made lately have been. Bad, possibly life altering choices. I’m disgusted with myself. The thing is I know better and only by the grace of God can I even hope to ever be forgiven. The worst part is I can’t seem to get myself to STOP. It’s seriously like an addiction. I know what I need to do, but I don’t know how to go about convincing myself to do it. I’m stubborn and my own worst enemy. Basically I need help.

Is greatly strong, but who says it should stop getting stronger? I love Christ with all of my heart, body, soul, mind, and strength, and I only want to love Him more and more. This is why I’ve been living to love and give, because that is what pleases Him. I pray and tell Him how much I absolutely adore Him. I praise His Name with great passion. Why? It’s not because I’m such a holy Christian. It’s because this wicked soul has seen His beauty. It’s because I’m changed from the inside out because of His love and grace. It’s because this faith has set me free from the fears and anxieties that had so bound me all my life. It’s because He saved my life. It’s because He changed this heart. It’s because He accepts and loves me even as I continue to fail Him. It’s because He can even look at an evil sinner like myself and say I love you. It’s because He healed my life’s pains and hurts. It’s because I was once marked down by doctors as an impossible case (I’m Bipolar), that I’d be raving mad my whole life. But Christ had other plans, and showed me through a miracle of complete healing that nothing is impossible for Him. Today I’m as normal as everyone else out there, and doctors are amazed and confused with their secular humanist ways being proved false. For I am not a product of chance, and I’m not just a bunch of chemical reactions. I’m a living, breathing, emotional being, a child of the King, and a girl with a soul, and an eternity in heaven when I die. And if loving Christ this much feels this good, then I want more of this love! More of Him! It’s my only desire!

I’ve been doing so much research today, involving the usual Catholic questions, like: Why do you follow a Pope? Why do you follow so many traditions? Do you think the traditions take away from the intimacy of your relationship with the Lord? (that one wasn’t meant specifically for me, but for all of catholic people in general) Why is confession necessary? Why do Catholics believe so much stuff that isn’t directly stated in the bible?

And I found ANSWERS! And they’re GOOD. I’m so psyched.