I’m definitely more confident. The guys decided that I should be the administrator and join the event organizing group, so now I have tons of responsibilities and challenges, which means that I can grow and gain more confidence.
Currently there are two events that I’m pretty much solely responsible for. One is on Saturday, I’m pretty much “meh” about that, it’s just a Valentine’s thing. But I’m trying really hard about one in March. It’s real hard, because, well, we’re totally broke, and I want to have one speaker from Belarus or Poland!
Not to mention that volunteering there means that I’m pretty much a full-time translator, psychologist, interior decorator and just a huge ball of awesome. :D
So yeah. Major test for confidence. 3 days ago
i think that this will be the hardest goal ever, coz if i can do this, i think i can do anything…and am not exagerating !
i chocked up, the other day, while presenting myself…Now am like, come ooooon, how hard can that be…pathetic .We were in a class of around 20 and i think i was the one just before the worse presentation.I couldn t breath, my voice was shaking, i skipped some things, but the teacher looked over that seeing i was in hell already.Wich made me feel worse of course.Now i can t get that out of my mind. 6 days ago
Talk to people with good self confidence to. I noticed some of my friends have pretty low self-esteem and it doesn’t help when I talk to them. 1 week ago
This isn’t really going anywhere.
I notice it in work a lot, where I have to speak with people of all walks of life, every single day. There are a few customers I can talk to very easily, but for the most part my confidence is very low and unless they make an effort to converse with me, any possible relationship is going nowhere.
There are times we have to try and upsell certain things, and Im just hopeless at it. The same goes with ID’ing people who look under 21. Its a big part of the job which you can get sacked for if you fail. Often I see people and think they are definitely under 21, but I still don’t ID them just because I find it so hard. If I did that and it was a Think21 test, I could be sacked immediately. My manager knows Im not a confident person, so I dont think he expects much. Luckily Im very good at the technical aspects of my job, so I dont think he minds Im not good with people. Jamie can handle that, she’s awesome with people and crap at technical areas.
If, on the very very rare occasion, a young pretty girl comes in and needs serving or some help with something, I immediately blush and get all flustered, as if everyone is watching my every step and listening to every word I say.
If I knew where to start, I’d try to take steps to improving, but as of yet, this goal is going by the wayside. 1 week ago
