give myself more credit

I was feeling down in the dumps after a recent break up thinking “what is wrong with me?” Then I realized I had been totally nice, more than understanding, kind and completely honest the entire time. It wasn’t me at all! I was actually pretty awesome. And I deserve someone better who will make time for me. I have to start giving myself some credit!!

It’s funny.. I keep coming back to this. I been ridiculously hard on myself lately when I really shouldn’t be. I have to try and remember that I’ve turned by life around in the last year. My life may not look like I thought it would but I’m doing okay. I’ve managed to make it to remission once (even though I’m not there anymore), I made my dream of traveling to France happen and now I’m starting my number one priority next week, university. I’ve done all that and then some in just a year. Pretty damn good Sarah!! You’re your own hero!! GIVE YOURSELF SOME CREDIT!

I feel that i always judged myself and therefore others did aswell. I want others to lower their expectations of me, so that when I’m having a bad day, they don’t see it as me slacking off, they can actually see that I am having a bad day. Its not that I’m not trying, or that I’m trying to annoy them, I actually have feelings too!!!

And why not? Why shall I be like others? If it’s comfortable for me, I’ll do it. Many credit cards, and what? But I have all that I want. And I’m young and have enough time to pay it off:-)

So, I did this and, to be honest, it was not worth it for me. However, because I believe it is worth it for everyone else, I marked it as I did.

The thing is that now I give myself credit for everything I do, but nothing more and guess what! People call me an arrogant asshole because I actually take credit for my work and good traits.

BAH!

However, for most people, learn to take credit for what you do and try not to get cocky or even be modest but get a lot done. As soon as you are better than everyone around you (even if you’re modest), people will hate you for it.

At least that’s how it went for me.