How I did it: I tried to be more in touch with my emotions.
As in, I am angry. Why am I angry? I dunno I just am.
I am happy. Why am I happy? I dunno I just am.
I have spent nearly 40 years not knowing the hows and whys and wherefores of my emotions, let alone trying to share them with anyone else!
Whenever I have tried to this year, I have made the little voices in other peoples' heads go; "Run! Run away from the nutty lady! She is frightening me!"
I can see it in their scared, rabbity-headlight eyes.
I am the metaphorical 4X4 about to make another victory road kill with my attempt to make contact. Read how I did it… 2 years ago
So I really tried to do that this year and pour it all out on LJ.
I KNOW I have no inside voice and no ability to hide what I am thinking…to some degree. As in I’ll call a spade a shovel and bury you with it.
But I still can’t tell you how I am feeling face to face. I just can’t do it.
2010 has been the worst year of my life for the most part. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong.
So I decided to let it all out on my journal.
Now everyone sees me as this mad, whingeing nut-bag.
You can’t win.
I am now going to change this entry to “keep your feelings to yourself- it’s worked well for nearly 40 years!” 2 years ago
This is probably an unrealistic goal.
I never say what I am really thinking. 4 years ago