needs an update. Seeing how this goal goes hand in hand with my anxiety/depression goals and all that other dark stuff—I thought I would post something positive here that I have been working on concerning this goal.

I bought this great book I have started reading only a few days ago. It’s had mixed reviews but mostly positive. It’s called Feeling Good by Dr Burns. I am only on the third chapter but I am already finding this book very helpful with this particular issue as well as the anxiety/depression.

It’s made me realize that my cynical sarcasm and pessimism is simply because of the way that my mind “thinks”. It’s that simple. The book talks a lot about how CBT can help this and so many other issues/ailments. I am hoping CBT will be able to help me with my depression, anxiety, insomnia, negative thinking, OCD, and so much more.

I wasn’t always a cynical person believe it or not. I used to be a very happy outgoing person with a positive outlook on life. It all started probably in my mid teen years and has drastically gotten worse over the past five to seven years. There are a lot of things I can “blame” my negative thinking on, but I am going to stop myself there and say that I am certain I can get through this. 10 months ago

.. the irony. 17 months ago

I really want to focus on this one. I think it definitely interferes with my daily life and it shouldn’t. I really want to live differently and be a more positive person. I seem to be having trouble with goal.. I’m not sure where it even stems from but I need to find out so I can become a more positive thinker. It seems that every time I’m sure that I am on the right track with positive thinking something awful happens that really changes my way of thinking. I always think the worst of any situation and it definitely should not be that way at all. How can I turn this around? Has anyone actually gotten past all the pessimism? 23 months ago