Don't be controlled by guilt and don't let anyone use guilt against me.

this is not going as well as i hoped. Not only am i still ‘guilting’ myself into things, im still letting other people do it too. It’s breaking my heart to not be able to accomplish this, im starting to feel completely lost as well. Im also beginning to realise how lost i am at the moment, im stuck in the pre-requisits people have set for me, so much so, that i’m no longer sure of who i am? I can’t live up to the expectations of myself, but i can for others?
...Please help me get back on my own two feet.

For someone to use guilt against you, they must pretty damn desperate for whatever they want. It’s cruel, harsh and downright low, not to mention petty and selfish of them. Guilt can be used against you in so many different ways, all ending in smashing of pride and confidence. No body has the right to use guilt against you, and you don’t have the right to use guilt against anyone else either. It’s just hurtful and makes the user look like a complete fool. I’m not willing to let someone make me feel guilty and then use it against me to force me into something i don’t want to do. When i do feel guilty about something-whatever it may be- i do tend to let it control me, i become really concerned about everything i do and frequently let it restrain me. I don’t want this to continue because I’d really like to hope that I’m now stronger than that. I’ll definately bust my mind and body until i achieve this, this is something I’m not going to conform to anymore.