Live less inside my own head

Wow. I had no idea that there were so many other people that did this! I have this horrible habit of sort of hanging in the background of social situations and observing instead of interacting. Instead I choose to “recreate” certain situations in my head. This is where Im me. This is where I have the body I want, I always look fabulous, guys love me and girls envy me.

Im pretty sure this comes from me not being comfortable with my body so I tell myself “well if you were skinny it would have been like this…”. I know my life isnt going to instantly improve and its due in large part to my growing accustomed to living in my head.

When you hang in the background long enough it doesnt matter what you look like because you’ve grown comfortable there so you just stay in the background. Im working on being more confident in myself now so that when I do lose weight I will have started to be more outgoing.

This is alot harder than it seems, I do it every day…ALOT…whats more I actually enjoy it! But its no good, infact its distructive and takes the emphasis away from the real world.

I must say though… I thought that I was the only one who does this!! seems that I’m not.

Im going to be honest.. I think that I often prefer my fantasy life to my real one…not good but Im working on it of course.

for this I started reading more, in a way this is a way to escape those “thinking pocesses”.. I find reading to be helping enough, just, of course, the book should be interesting and involving :)

sometimes it seems to me that”living inside my head” starts when I am not so occupied with the work I have to do, when there is time just for sitting and “day dreaming”, well, I guess it is not so bad to dream for some time, but if that thinking becomes distructing and I notice it I try to stop that as quickly as I can.

I am trying to consciously connect with my world. Concentrate on making my cup of tea. Focus on eating my lunch. Think about what is happening in front of me and not be lost in my head or thoughts as much! I want to stop living in my head!!!!!!

How?

This is a goal i’d really like to get off my list it’s really starting to effect my life . It’s funny how you can just tune yourself out to the world and live safely inside your own head but when you snap out of it the world is just as you left it and you HAVE TO deal with it.Comming back to it isnt much fun either .you realise how much you missed out on and have to catch up with …considering i’m in law school now and have failed 4 of the 6 papers i had this semester because of my tendency to live more inside my own head than the real world …i’d really like to get this off my list soon…aaahhh!!

Today , I didn’t live in my head today even through today suck I didn’t go me !!!!!!!!!!!off to work

I need to stop , doing, that cause its a bad habit. I’m just glad I’m no the only one. I think the first thing I’m going to do is stop playing Sims2 cause that doesn’t help, and try to be alot happier with me and what I have in my life and just be happy with me. So, starting tomorrow no more I’m gonna try

I should really stop listening to the crap I say to myself :(

I’m really trying, but thoughts always get lost between my brain and my mouth. I have considerable social anxiety as well, which makes it way too comfortable to lock myself in my room and pretend I’m someone else. I’ve always had a completely different idea of myself in my head, where I’m as beautiful and smart and charming as I want to be. Truthfully the whole thing has gotten out of hand, and what can I say? The real thing is just… crap.

I might trash this goal, I don’t know.