have more self-confidence

I realize I don’t know how to tackle this goal. How am I going to know it is done? I guess what I’m really tired of is feeling like people always know better than me. I feel like a little girl not knowing anything when I talk to some people. I wonder if it’s just their attitude or mine… I need to be more self-confident about what I think and do. I feel there’s always a side of the question I didn’t think about, and then I feel stupid for overlooking it. Hate that.

This is going to be, by far, my toughest goal to accomplish. I’m very hard on myself…about everything. From my looks, to my skating, to my forgetfulness.

Since my roller derby is a major priority right now, I think I will start there. So, this week I’m going to try not to say anything negative about my own skating abilities (or lack thereof). If I screw up I will NOT apologize. I will just do it again until I get it right. I will concentrate on showing my coach how much I want to be in the game. We will see how it goes tomorrow night…

I have little self confidence. But I am going to work on that. How? I have to use positive thinking about me and what I can do in life as a woman, as a wife, as a collegue, as a friend. I am gonna talk to different people and find out that people have different opinions about me and that they sometimes like you and sometimes not. I am going to invest more time in my friends and I am not putting myself down if someone tries to. I am not impressed and I am not going to let myself worry about those people!! I am going to listen more to myself and the people who love me!

’’Even everything in the world are destroyed,your future will stand in its own place strongly.’‘

after my private donors recital thursday night i think i can check this off my list. but that’s not so modest of me. let’s just say it was pretty good. i felt 13 again, which is the last time i played that piece. i was a bad ass 13-yr-old. actually i was a very good girl, and i’m doing exactly what i dreamed of doing then, now.

Pretty sure that I have normal adult levels of this.

My first goal in raising my confidence would have to be..to flirt with this guy that works at Publix, that keeps talking to me. He’s great looking, and he talks to me…so it shouldn’t be soooo bad…