Lose 30 pounds

I met with my trainer again today and purchased the 12 training sessions for my mom and I. On Tuesday, he assigned me the lovely task of keeping track of my diet for three days and filling out some paperwork regarding my eating habits. We reviewed them today and developed a general diet plan. Tomorrow, I’m going to plan the next weeks worth of meals and get some shopping in. I have also been to the gym three times this week. I did mostly cardio and realized that I need to challenge myself more. I keep forgetting to get my iPod out of my bag until I get upstairs…gotta remember next time. The training schedule should be easily arranged for the next few weeks, until I go back to work. Then I’ll really have to make myself commit and get my arse to the gym.

I met with my trainer again today and purchased the 12 training sessions for my mom and I. On Tuesday, he assigned me the lovely task of keeping track of my diet for three days and filling out some paperwork regarding my eating habits. We reviewed them today and developed a general diet plan. Tomorrow, I’m going to plan the next weeks worth of meals and get some shopping in. I have also been to the gym three times this week. I did mostly cardio and realized that I need to challenge myself more. I keep forgetting to get my iPod out of my bag until I get upstairs…gotta remember next time. The training schedule should be easily arranged for the next few weeks, until I go back to work. Then I’ll really have to make myself commit and get my arse to the gym.

Met with my trainer today. Mom and I are going to do sessions together. We’ve done three so far and they’ve gone pretty well. He was nice enough to allow me to work with mom on her last four sessions. Her last session (today) was used to weigh and measure me. I also had a “structural integrity assessment,” which basically shows where my weak points are, not if I’m a delapidated old building.
Since I had all this done last year,I have gained two pounds and several inches. I knew that my body felt different, but now I see where. I have somewhere around 36% body fat and he figures I should lose around 30 pounds (of fat). He also explained how I will gain muscle so the scale will probably only show a loss of 20 pounds. Which is fine really, as long as I’m healthier and happier with the way I look.
In addition to body composition, I have to keep track of what I eat for three days. Well, I totally blew my allotment of calories eating dinner at the “OG.” I had fried lazagne appetizer, salad, half bowl of soup, four or five bread sticks, and then my huge dinner of steak and pasta!!!! Believe me, I feel it! Both emotionally regretful and physically uncomfortable (and it’s 2:00 in the morning). That was a lame thing to do. I feel like a child who should be scolded for doing something bad. Really? With this being a goal, shouldn’t I…couldn’t I have done better?
This will truely be a learning process for me.

I haven’t wanted to…I took a little ‘vacation’ from it for a little too long, though. Got back into it yesterday and it hurt…not badly, but my muscles were weak and I was sluggish. Today’s exercise took a lot of convincing to get me there, but I did it…and I feel better. Changed up my music to make things less boring. Maybe tomorrow won’t be so hard.

Well, day 2 here. It is pretty easy. I mean, it’s not like I’m actually hungry. It’s just that non-raw foods are starting to tempt me. I’m sure that I can relate to many other people, though. Especially those who are dieting, fasting, etc.

Kim went out just to buy me some vegan gourmet cheese just so I could have some soy cheese pizza. How nice. But even soy cheese isn’t raw. And she doesn’t even know that I’m doing this whole raw thing. I mean, I can’t tell her! She’d flip. She’d think I was trying to be anorexic, and would automatically claim that I am starving myself.

No, I’m not. Eating raw is very healthy. Very. It’t not even any of her business that I am doing this.

Once again: It was nice that she thought of me and went out to buy some soy cheese, but.. I can’t eat it. Not yet. Not until next monday.

I’m worried, though. it’s only day two and Kim is already getting suspicious.

Basically, I’m eating raw fruit, vegetables, almonds, walnuts, tea, soymilk, and soy protein shakes. Oh, and edamame. Yumm. :)))

Okay, so today, I kind of slipped up. I’m starting to go on 30 minute jogs every other day in my backyard. I woke up at 11:15 today, so I was kind-of late. Anyway, I go to start running, and guess who decides to pop outside for a session of unnecessary weed-pulling and tanning?

The blonde lady from next door. Fuck! So, as I”m running past her fence, I catch a glimpse of her and just run inside.

Then, I had 2 bowls of corn flakes with soymilk and agave nectar, and some tortilla chips. All carbs, too.

I had an apple before my run. But I know that I can just run at like 6:00 pm or maybe 7:00.

No matter what, I am running today. I am going to lose this weight that ruins my days. I can never enjoy living when I hate myself this much.

Holy… shit.
Do you know how much food has starch and sugar in it? I’m going to seriously need to expand my tastes if I’m going to survive the next two – three weeks. I was shocked at everything I looked at today.

Breakfast:
One scrambled egg w/ cheese and rosmary, two slices low fat turkey bacon

Lunch:
Blackened chicken ceaser salad grilled (no croutons), one glass pinapple juice (yes it’s a sugar, but I was supposed to get tattooed today and that is a very unpleasant experience if you don’t have any sugar in your system. I picked a healthy sugar at least)

Snack:
Rest of chicken from salad (2 slices), 2 slices cheese

Dinner:
Chicken al a King w/o flour (waaay too salty without the flour)

I’m doing ok so far, but I’m worried my diet is going to be very bland for the next two weeks. And we have the most amazing looking grapes in the fridge right now sob

I’ve started my excercize program….again. I generally walk 4-7 miles on Tues. and Thurs., but this hasn’t helped any weight loss efforts. I’m in decent health, gaining muscle, but as muscle weighs more than fat, I’m also gaining pounds. I don’t think I could stand to see the scale go up even 1 more pound.

This week, I have decided to add weight training to my excercize program. I hesitated to do this for a long time, because I absolutely hate lifting weights. I cannot find another thing on this planet that I find more boring than this. Anyone find anything as helpful that won’t give me the feeling that I am wasting an awful lot of time doing strenuous stuff?

So I’ve decided that doing this on my own is going to be a little more difficult than I thought. I’ve been following the progress of a friend of mine (Lucrezea) on the South Beach diet and I’m rather encouraged by her efforts. The book is only ten dollars at Chapters, so I think I’m going to go pick it up today and give it a shot.
Wish me luck.

I just found my old notebook and found my old weight. :)

I used to weigh 185lbs when I wanted to do this goal. Now it’s 170lbs, so I can’t say that I’m done with this, right?

Damn, hard work ahead!!!