stop blaming myself for everything

it’s come down me killing myself over issues that aren’t just MY fault. and now i am starting to realize i shouldn’t be the one ALWAYS feeling bad because it’s not just me. =]

cos it’s a really bad habit.

I’m a perfectionist by nature and predisposed to be hard on myself, but my boss started pushing me over the edge. Things that weren’t issues before he came along, have now become signs of the impending apocolypse.

For example:
One time he pulled me out of a meeting and proceeded to scream at me that I was “Incompentent and stupid” and that I “made him look bad”. Ever since then I’ve blamed myself whenever something at work doesn’t go quite right. I feel like I could’ve done it earlier or planned it better. I constantly feel like I’m walking on eggshells and find myself taking blame for things before they even go wrong. I work with a lot of high-strung marketing/creative people and as the most complacent of the bunch, sometimes I think that I get blamed for things because I’m the one least likely to rip my boss a new A$$hole (I filed a complaint with HR instead, BTW)

But still, my self-esteem has reached an all-time low. I used to get really excited about things but now it’s nothing but anxiety….:-(

man, it feels so good to vent…..