This wasn’t a very difficult goal to accomplish. But picking up the pieces of my deteriorating life (as a result from smoking so much pot) is going to be the real challenge.

Because of my chronic marijuana use, I was told that I have amotivational syndrome. I failed out of University and have to go to a community college, where I dropped 2 classes and am currently failing another one. Every other aspect of my life is either an equal mess or just frustratingly stagnant.

My shrink totally blames the pot. Last night was my last night smoking up and I’m sure that when my life is back in order, I won’t need pot to get me by. 2 years ago

This summer I plan on staying forever stoned. I plan on investing in an ounces instead of little babyass grams. I have a speeding ticket to pay for and that’s my number one financial priority but I will be ready to start buying on May 28th. Honestly I’m super excited and it’s going to be hard for me to get through these 23 days (yes, I’m keeping count). But last night, my friend made me feel better by telling me that since I’m not going to be getting lifted for like 3 weeks, my tolerance is going to drop and therefore I’m gonna get SUPER SMACKED once I do start up again. This philosophy is great and makes me feel much better for abstaining but at the same time, the fact remains that I’m not getting high yet =( I was looking at some resources online that helps with marijuana addiction and one source said that tolerance drops within 1 day of abstinence. If I’m going through a month of abstinence, I will no doubt be done by the time I start up again.

For now, my goal is to keep myself occupied and busy so that I can keep the thoughts of weed from consuming my thoughts. I don’t know what to involve myself in…here are some ideas:

• Actually study for the upcoming final exams
• Run errands
• Clean room
• Compile several stoner playlists to convey every mood possible while high
• Be active at work
• Read books (I’m reading some personal finance books right now)
• Maybe start a personal blog
• Take pictures/experiment with camera 3 years ago

I’ve started buying grams, and I smoke about a gram every 2 days, I’m spending $20 every 2 days on weed. That totals out to $300 a month. That’s sort of insane, and being a broke college student, I really need to start conserving money so I’m thinking about cutting back just a little. I smoke literally every day. And don’t get me wrong, I love being high; it opens up my mind to so much creativity and spirituality, and I feel so relaxed and euphoric. But alas, I gotta start saving money! My boyfriend said, “Give it up now so you can do more of it later.” Great philosophy and I plan on smoking so much more with him when I’m older and have settled down. I’m gonna have a weed budget! 3 years ago