Here’s the deal: In the past couple of months, I have become very self-centered and a total elitist snob. Somehow, the idea got in my head that I’m way better than everyone…this caused a riff between me and God. I really hate that I’ve become this way because God and I used to have this incredible relationship…until I became too caught up in my own image.
Something I need to remember is that absolutely everyone was created in God’s image, thus making them all beautiful to him. In no way am I better than any of God’s creations, we’re all equal in His eyes and that’s something I just need to come to terms with.
So I’m really really working on drawing closer to Him in any possible way. I’ve found that actually kneeling next to my bed at night to pray helps so much because it prevents me from falling asleep. Also, listening to all Christian music has made a big difference as well since it’s all so positive and uplifting.
I think God will see that I’m really trying to get closer to Him and He’ll reward my attempts. All I want is to get to Heaven one day and have Him say “Well done, my child.” That would be incredible.
