make my life better

My life seems to be getting worse. Today i cheated on an exam and even that was unsuccessful.

My assignments are really overdue and I hope the teachers accept them because I will really get kicked out of my degree and I cant go to any other uni (which is the plan since I failed so much and want to erase all the fails from my record)

I have a few assignments to finish and i hope i get through them.

I really need to start thinking about consequences, to base my choices on their consequences because if i had such a mindset 4 years ago my degree would of been at its end now and id be financially free next year. But its gona be a long and tough road now. I hope all goes well

My ear is burning bcus of the stress im going through, if only i could bottle up this horrible feeling and allow myself to experience it any other time i wish to put off my tasks.

and welfare didnt accept my application for payment so i’ll have to see if i can go on any other payments cos if i cant , how can i pay my bills? i might have to go on Job seeking next year.

I realised that I have really been self sabotaging. If i dont pass atleast half my courses this semest i will be suspended from uni.

I am not gona put up with my self sabotaging anymore.

I am happier working hard.

I am happy just putting my mind to something and keeping at it.

I want a great life. Not a miserable & poor life.

THERES just over 21 days left before i have to go overseas for my wedding.

I am still really fat, my goal was to get down to 59 kgs by now. But thats another fail.

I have so many overdue assignments , around 8 or so. And its killing me. totally stressing me. If i dont pass more than 50% of my courses im gona get kicked out for a whole year cos i did poorly last semester. Obviously thats a terrible outcome.

My life has gone down hill. Even my health. I look so much older than I really am because I am depriving my body of water.

I am broke. I have a debt I cant afford to repay.

Nothing is working out right.

My personality is terrible. I am quick to anger and i am not one who respects my standards. Well my standards are unknown.

I need to see someone about who i am and why im making all the wrong decisions.

Life, please get better.

so my life is kind of going downhill. I saw a vedio of me from early 2000’s but i havent changed ever since. I havent accomplished anything i can look back on and remember as an accomplishment. Literally nothing!!.

So i think i should start doing something about it bcus id hate to be 30 years old and have nothing accomplished.

So each month i’ll set myself a goal and a deadline and make a plan and achieve it. I think this will also help me with my procrastination problem.

So this months goal is just to lose weight and gain muscle. Get sexy! since im getting married and dont want to look like a slob =)
and its not healthy.

Speaking of which another goal for this month (next 30 days) is that i want to drink 4 L of water by the end of the month. So 1 L added each week until 4 weeks. My skin is horrible bcus of the lack of water.

Andddd I want to have 4 large amounts of veggies a day. And will start with 1 large amount of veg each day , each week!

And one last goal : stay positive , control your mind.

That will be it for this month.

i think that everything is pointless but when i met this person i changed somehow.

i want to turn my life around but i shall have do wait and plan my attack

don’t worry too seriously

get a car

get a driver’s license

make more money