i get so scared sometimes just thinking about death i start freaking out and crying. i go crazy, run around like a little kid and kiss and hug my own kids, while they are sleeping usually. it seems to only happen at night, when i ahve time to think and its quite. i ant accept the fact that one day there will be no more, how can that be? how can I just NOT BE? it just doesnt make sense to me. what happens? i dont believe in life after death, or anything of that sort, and i truely wished i did. i hope to be proven wrong one day. but my brain says it isnt so. i dont want to die!!!!!!
Apr 17, 2008, 07:23PM PDT | 1 cheer | 3 comments
My boyfriend of over 3 years committed suicide on July 9th, and I am having trouble accepting his death. It is so difficult, because besides missing him in the present, I have so many memories of the past and a lack of hope for the future. I am having no problem accepting my own death, it is the death of others that is causing me so much grief and anxiety. He was only 20… so intelligent… so creative… and an extraordinary best friend/boyfriend…I feel as though I have lost my link to reality.
Jul 28, 2007, 10:38PM PDT | 2 comments
Death haunts me. It’s hard to live your life if you don’t believe in metaphysics. When I look our individual behaviors, I can’t believe we are meant to exist forever. Time destroys matter; time kills animals. I think the most frightening thing about death is to cease to exist along our memories. When I think about good times from the past, my brain processes those memories and makes them real for me (the recipient). If I die or if I lose my long term memory, my past fades and then I (my personality) meet the void.
I was wondering… What are your thoughts about all this? Do you fear the pain from your death? Do you fear to not live long enough to fulfill your goals? Or do you fear that life might be useless if the past dies along with your body? It’s interesting to see another’s points of view and I would be glad to hear them from people like me who have some difficulties about this topic.
Apr 30, 2007, 01:42AM PDT | 1 cheer | 5 comments
just watch Montel on wensdays silvia browne says thatt death is basicly going through a tunnel, and having your gardian angel explain to you what just happened(unless your a bad person, then you dont get a gardian angel), and last…im not sure but still death isnt as bad as you think its the only time you can truly not care about the world
Mar 10, 2007, 04:39PM PST | 1 cheer | 2 comments
Oh no… My cousin’s friends aunt just died…leaving behind 3 young kids and her husband…...awful…
Feb 18, 2007, 09:57PM PST | 1 comment
I just cannot imagine my own death, and dread it. Whenever I think about someones life finally coming to an end, I get sad.
Dec 30, 2006, 04:42PM PST | 1 comment
JP Creighton rising to shine on a rainy cloudy May Sunday;waiting for coffee, here.
And I’m looking forward to the change.
May 20, 2006, 06:34PM PDT | 2 cheers | 4 comments
