feel pain

There’s nothing there, nothing at all. I can’t feel pain, however much I try. You might think it’s a good thing, but not feeling pain results in not being able to feel anything. I try so hard to feel something, something big, huge, but it doesn’t come. I want to be overwhelmed by feeling, but I never am. I feel things in small doses that just leave me wanting more. I need to feel something and pain is the easiest one to experiment with.

theres really only one thing thats on my mind and whats happenen to me and its pain. Im in so much pain my whole body is sufffering but i like the feeling. There are two ways of pain physical and mental. I think that everyone goes through both phsical and mental pain.

The only reason right now i want to feel pain is because i dont feel anything right now. Everything to me seems numb and no matter what i do the only way i feel pain is to physically hurt myself. It scars me. It seems as though I dont even have a conscious anymore.