Totally lacking direction and drive for the last few days. I just wish I could figure out where I want my life to go and then pursue it as this state of limbo affects everything I do. I have so much work to do in my job and with tight deadlines and I just stare at the screeen.

I keep finding I will find direction, I will find purpose and it will drive me to be better in all things. Then days like today I wonder if it is all just a pipe dream, maybe it takes a certain person to have a life purpose and I will spend the rest of my time wandering and doing a half job at everything. 9 months ago