get off my ass and do something inspiring with my life

but I am doing something inspiring with my life every day, and if it doesn’t continue I’ll just re-open this goal.

For years I have wanted to become a logopedig. I still do :) I applied this year to see if I could get in, and I’m ten points above the average. But I have to get a more stabil life situation before I start on a 4-year-degree. Therefore I am going to work part time (hopefully at an animal clinic or a library) this year, while studying “An introduction to modern Japan”. I think that’s a goal. :)

I made an A in physics last semester. This is after being told that I had dyscalculia and would never comprehend math beyond a fifth grade level. It may not have inspired anyone else, but it has inspired the hell out of me. I think inspiring yourself can be just as important.

i’m saying i’ve done this in going to massage school…every class there is a joy…all of my classmates are shining gems of people and my teachers are enthused about what they are teaching

i can’t wait to put everything into practice and eventually open up my own holistic healing center

i’m so glad i finally got off my butt to go do this

so…i’m probably going to be offered a position as a teacher at a daycare…working with infants, toddlers and preK kids…this would be SUCH an amazing job and so much fun…

but it pays a LOT less than the job i have now…$600-$700 a month less…that’s humongous

and i have a lot of plans to save up for stuff right now, like a trip to ireland, a car, a huge tattoo and an electric guitar….the tat and the guitar are clearly superfluous, and i suppose ireland is too, but the car i WILL need within the next year or so, and with the way i handle money, having a lot extra around is a REALLY good thing for me…some of my worst panic attacks have surrounded just never having enough money to pay the bills, get food, pay for insurance, etc. etc. etc.

::sigh::

what to do….what to do…

the daycare would be great, but MUCH more high stress…on top of school which i start in a week, i’m not sure this is a good idea

i will also be getting a raise in 3 months here….

money vs. a potentially soul enriching job…

i’m a shitty person

i’m starting a gym membership in the next few weeks…so part one of this goal should be accomplished right quick…this place looks awesome:

weight room, nautilis, aerobic, YOGA, basketball court, pool, cardio, pilates…

i cannot wait