heal my broken heart

i have fallen for the wrong guys twice. i loved them both so dearly. but as much as i have loved them, i have been equally or more hurt by them.

i want to stop hurting already…

Everyday starting today I will do a little bit to heal my heart.

Yup time heals more than you can imagine.

I thought I would never feel normal again. Well ya do!!

Its just a waiting game.

Ok Joy!

I want to be love and I want to love. I won’t let one mistake to pull me down. He was a mistake and now I want to just earse it and just forget about it. Remember don’t let the past in, it’ll just destroy your tomorrow.

I don’t want to be with anyonne that wouldn’t care for me. I’m always there if someone has problems. I’m always there to listen. Whether that guy wants to be with me or not then its tooo bad. Its a difficult time that I’m in right now, but its ok. I’m pretty sure I can handle it. I don’t need any symphathy. Whether I forgive him or not. It doesn’t matter, my heart no longer have room for you.

SO AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH… I just don’t want to think about it anymore. My life is for bigger things and better things. I’ll meet my one. One day.. okkk.. just be positive and happy. Because I am positive and happy. It was because of some dark nightmare, which took me away. BUT NOW I’M BACK AND STRONGER! SMILEEEE!

This was probably the longest I’ve ever gone through trying to heal this heart of mine. I’ve been through so many situations like this, but have always jumped back. But this was like no other. I guess it’s alot harder when you think of those moments you were happy. This relationship was not the best and barely felt like one to begin with. But that was not how my heart healed though.

I learned with this pain that everyone is going through their own struggle in their life. I realize that feeling this pain only shows that I’m only human. I know its kinda cliche’, but I rather feel this pain than feel nothing at all. I know it’s difficult for everyone to go through this, but all it really does take is time. Time was my best friend during this.

With the help of my family and friends, I was able to feel more wanted than I ever felt. If I were to stay upset any longer, it’ll just prevent me from meeting my true love. When she broke up with me, I thought she would always have a piece of my heart with her, but that’s wrong. My heart was with me all along. My heart was broken, but it will never break my ambition to find my true love. And once I do, that’s when I know my heart wasn’t broken all along.

I want to thank you all here for all your support and kindness. You have help my heart healed along the way. And I wish the best of luck to everyone else going through this as well.

And now as I move on with my heart in my hands and my head held high, I look foward to find my true love.

January 6, 2008 was when he dumped me. 1 day before our 3 year anniversary. What hurt the most was that i thought we were doing fine and then bam out of nowhere he broke up with me…. on the phone. We hadn’t talked until March and I think it just made things worse because he said he wanted to still be friends and I did too. Or so I thought. I think I wanted to be friends because I had that little glimmer of hope inside me that there would be a chance to get back together. I stopped talking to him a week ago because I couldn’t take being friends with him. When you are so used to holding someone and kissing and cuddling and then go to just being friends is hard to do. I think I just need some encouragement from anyone or advice on how to heal my broken heart.

I finally did it! It was a very long and hard process, but the pain is finally gone. Im happy again. Life seems full of posibilities right now! I see him,and I feel nothing. Poor guy! He lost someone great!
If I can do it, so can everybody! Its hard, it hurts, its painful, it takes time, but its possible!
The best thing to do its to let it all out. Cry all you want, talk to your friends. At first, you feel like it doesnt work. But it does!

Broken hearts never heal, the experience becomes less sharp, although dulled with time the feelings are always there to be recounted.
The best part of this experience is the value of other people’s hearts that I feel. A woman, a friend, falling for me quickly would normally please me, the attention is enjoyable, but tempered with my other experiences I could slow her down knowing that I wasn’t going to fall for her, too, and I could protect her from a difficult heartbreak one day.
She feels that things could change over time, I could learn to love her over time, but I know otherwise. Her new plan is to tell me we can be friends, she’s not really faling for me or hoping for it, but my intuition lets me see how she really feels.
There was a thought to rebound, isn’t that the easiest way to get over someone? But it breaks up the experience, it doesn’t change the affect it has. The feelings are driven below the surface into the subconscious and come up occasionally trough unexplained behaviour and feelings. It seems better to experience the agony of a breaking heart and feel through the experience to a place of self acceptance, just letting the feelings and experience be.
There’s no perfect way to go through this. It’s messy, confusing, depressing. Service or volunteer work is the way to feel through it best, but you can’t disconnect from the agony, better to feel it, acknowledge it, cry through it, rather than stifle and drive it deep to a place it can come out and hurt another person one day. If I’m going to hurt someone, I want to know about it, do it on purpose, so I can see if it’s for good reason or choose not to do it.

I surrounded myself with positive people who also cheered me on. Thought about all this person’s negative attributes. Made sure every day I looked good as possible (pampered myself) Got out and enjoyed myself. Then I realized it was my pride not my heart that was hurt. I also realized that it was so true when people would say “It’s not you with the problem it’s him” I deserve better and it was definately his lost. It was DEFINATELY worth it!

I gave my heart and he twisted it up and handed it back to me. Why me all the time? Will this pain ever wanna go away? I feel so angry because we talked about everything. I never even saw it coming. He offered no explanation. Just stopped calling me. I haved listened and supported this man through many of his issues. And this is my reward. A kick to the curb!