be patient

nothing can test your patience quite like a 4 year old, so here’s to me biting my tongue and not sweating the small stuff.

I’ve learned this thing about myself that I relate patience to control. If I become inpatient it’s usually because I want to control the situation. That’s not necessarily bad, because I’m motivated to change and move ahead but at the same time having patience instills a logical place emotionally and mentally to take inventory and prioritize. So having patience, for me, means letting go of wanting control and relishing in the progress that has been made towards the final outcome.

A virtue that I will NEVER be able to have. Patience is hard, but I will try this one in the future.

I don’t know if I’ll ever succeed with this one. :)

i need a chick or a dick

be more and more

I know God has planes for me, I know I am still young and i should enjoy these years. But, I want to know too much and i have grown impatient. I pray every night for the same things, only none have came yet, I know he’s hears me and they will be answered but like i said, i am still waiting and i am an impatient person. This is a challenge. It’s getting to me, i see the others around me who seem to have the one thing I need, and i am still left praying and waiting, i cant give up but I am scared it may happen, i dont know what expect from myself, i dont know if i am strong enough to hold on just a little longer, i dont know if i can keep up. Every step i take i fall behind two more steps. Its like with every good thing comeing my way, is only more bad. If i am being tested than i better pass the damn test with flying colors. I can only wait, I know God has heard me and he will respond, weather i like the response or not, i have to learn to accept it when it comes my way.

For now i am left waiting.

This one sucks.

But here’s some truth that gets me through it all.

“Cast all your cares upon the Lord, for He cares for you”

“But you, oh Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, and the one who lifts my head high”

“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths”

“He is faithful and true. He’s the lover of all men. He has rescued us before and He will rescue us again.”

“Seek the Lord and you will find Him when you seek with all your heart.”

“The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul. the decrees of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple.”

And the simple but great-and-far-beyond-any-understanding-fact the GOD IS GOOD

be patient

It’s paying off! (hardly worth typing anything more than the subject)