Find someone who loves me for me

part of my reason for wanting this is to get over my ex. i deserve better…and i’ll find it.

I spent so many years trying to be who he wanted me to be that i forgot just how good I was as just me..just me!!

oh wow. im totally and completely head over heels in love with a boy. and he feels exactly the same way.
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i can be my most stupid and naive self, and he doesnt care. he loves every minute of it. or so he says!
he better do anyways :]
love makes everyone feel special.

I think i blame the media for this. If we werent constantly bombarded with these ‘perfect relationships’ like in bridget jones, we wouldnt have the idea in our head, and we’d just be able to settle…god i hate it.

im sick of trying to change myself for other people. i want a guy who can love me for i am right now.

Love finds you when you least expect it.
And I am living proof of this…

I’ve always been very wary with boys. (Men are illusions – they’re just bigger boys.) I have very, very well meaning yet over-protective parents. It’s just that my motto has always been “It cant hurt you if you won’t let it.” My guy friends think of me as well… a great friend – someone they can hang out with and tell them straight up how everything is. They don’t know that I’m a marshmallow inside.

ive always had to put on a facade with men. ive always show a side of them they could handle. id limit my feelings and thoughts always in the relationship for i knew that if i truly came out, that they wouldnt like the type of person i truly was. and ive had past experiences with this to know of its surety. why cant i find someone who will love the fun, witty and crazy girl i actually am? isnt that a man enough who can handle something different than the typical ditzy blonde who refers to everything as “hawt”??

Isn’t this what everyone wants? The Bridget Jones kind of love.. where someone would accept you for who you are and not for what you could be… not skinnier, not with bigger boobs, not smarter, not taller, not more popular.. just you as you are right now. And even if they had the opportunity.. wouldn’t change who you are for the world. Damn, now where can you find love like that? We shouldn’t have to accept any less than that in a relationship. But it always does seem easier said then done. One day I’m going to find that though… I have to believe it at least.