avoid the darkness

Whew this is a tough one. I can’t believe the subject of my last post was from three years ago. I can’t believe I became totally entangled in another horrible situation for over a year. Not so good for the confidence in this area. I feel like the invisible hand lets me go as far as I could possibly go without death as a consequence and then pulls me back. I don’t want to even head in that direction anymore, though.

Had a conversation about this the other day…new year’s, actually. I want to be strong. I want to see these people coming. Right now I can see some of them coming, but I’m so shaken from my last experience that I doubt everyone. And as for the ones that I do see, my only choice at the moment is avoidance.

does the fact that i stumbled right into the most evil person/situation imaginable teach me anything. i mean, HAS it taught me anything. i sure hope so; but only time will tell…

For nearly a year now I’ve attempted to go a week without thinking about the band called The Darkness. It is a noble aim, but not one I have yet achieved.

I don’t think it can be avoided. It chases me around, constantly nipping at my heels and swallowing me in one huge gulp.

Yeah, I’m totally talking about the band. I guess I’ll need to see them on the street or something. Then just walk the other way.

That’s the mission :). Fingers crossed.