LailahEventually
I’m in no rush to get my tattoos removed, it doesn’t really bother me (besides the embarrassment I feel), it’s at the bottom of my goal list but eventually I do want them removed.
When I was sixteen I got my boyfriend of a year and a half’s name tattooed on my lower back. When I was nineteen I got (his name forever) in between my shoulder blades, this was the same guy lol. I don’t know why I got it twice maybe I just wasn’t creative enough to come up with a phrase I would like for the rest of my life lol. Yes, I know, I’m an idiot.
The tattoos themselves are very nicely done, and in a nice elegant font. I like the look of and placement of the tattoos, which is probably why it doesn’t bother me as much as it should. I was never planning on getting any tattoos other than the two I have and when I do get these removed I will not get any more, as I want my skin to be completely clear.
I don’t regret getting the tattoos because I can’t regret something that made me happy at the time. I did love him deeply when I got these tattoos and he was my first boyfriend. When I got the tattoos I went in with the knowledge that we could one day break up and I wouldn’t regret the tattoo because it represents a chapter in my life. It’s not necessarily a mistake just a memory. And if we ever did break up and I did meet someone else, if the guy truly loved me, a tattoo wouldn’t bother him no matter what it was. So I don’t regret getting them.
I’m still with this guy, 8 years later, but I don’t love him and I most definitely do not want to waste the rest of my life with him. I would like to have my tattoos removed because now that I’m older I don’t like the idea of having a man’s name tattooed on my body, it seems really pathetic and degrading to me now. It’s not the fact that it’s his name, it’s just that it’s a mans name in general.
If getting them removed leaves a noticeable scar then I’ll have to re-think this goal. My tattoos are black ink, I’ve heard that’s the easiest to remove. It’s not a big deal if I don’t have them removed right away because they are actually quite small and no one would even know I had these tattoos unless I told them so because my clothing covers them, but one day I will have laser tattoo removal. I am embarrassed that I have these tattoos, to this day my mum still doesn’t know what the tattoo on my upper back says, she has asked and I will not tell her because it’s too embarrassing to admit that I was once stupid enough to get such a phrase written on my body with permanent ink lol. 23 months ago
