apologise to my ex

6 years ago, I cheated on my husband. Amist the enormous and overwelming mixture of emotions about breaking up and dealing with family reactions, I never really dealt with what I had done and my relationship with him, and its eventual breakdown. last year, 5 years after the event, I started counselling and managed to deal with the guilt and remorse i felt for what happened. As a result i wrote and sent a letter of aplogy to him. I didn’t do it to get a response from him. I did it to say sorry for what happened. I don’t even know if he recieved the letter, but knowing that I have dealt with my feelings and that I have made an effort to let him know means that I am now at peace with myself. And I genuinely hope he is leading a happy and healthy life.

Though he hurt me pretty badly, my response to tar him with the “you’re a fucking mentalist” brush to everyone who would listen was way out of line. (He WAS a fucking mentalist, but that’s besides the point.)

Though he’ll never meet all these people who think he’s the Devil Incarnate, I feel pretty guilty all the same…

So, if you’ll listen, Joseph, you hurt me, I got you back, it’s over now and I wish you well.

(Ish.)