learn to cry

Been too My-own-superhero lately, well over a year now. And its catching up with me. I know I need a relief. Need a break and a cry-it-all-out breakdown. Let out all the stuff that is happening just now or has happened and has been eatin me for too long now. I happen to be a proud demonstrator of me being a strong and unbreakable superwoman kind of creature. And that just aint good since once the walls are comin down at me there is no escape and I feel the pressure. BUT I CANT LET IT OUT! Today I cried two tears [Weheeeey!]. WATCHING MADONNAs DOCUMENTARY!!!!! DAMN!! Can I learn somehow how to cry when the ‘tide is high’?

And then… showing emotions is it good?? There are people who says that it is necessary but deep inside me I still believe that only week persons show their emotions to make other react. It is week.. I think that my emotions are my business and I don’t won’t everybody to be involved in my mind.. Just people I let to be involved..I am calm and silent and I really like it!!!:)

i havent cried in two years. Ive attended almost a dozen funerals in that time (close friends and familey) and i cant bring myself to cry. Its not that i dont care i just cant cry

I went almost a year without crying once. I didn’t feel like I was really alive, even if crying is typically seen as bad. Even though right now I may be crying too much, (:D) it’s definately better to get it all out.

You will never know it.

that right now there is nothing I want to cry about. ^_

I don’t want to be really sensible person who cries all the time watching movies with bad endings.. Just I don’t cry and sometimes I wish I could… Just because I don’t like people thinking I’m week person.. But strong people sometimes cry as well.. And probably it’s nothing bad to cry in front of others.. maybe.. I’m not so sure:)

like people feeling sorry for me.

However, I like them not understanding why I’m crying even less.

I always want to cry lately.

... And I never do. No matter how much my feelings are hurt, I always hide my tears.

But isn’t it just easier that way?

Yes – the MTV Video Music Awards are relevant to this goal.

Because I cried when I watched them. Now you may ask – “Why would you cry while watching an awards show?”

Because AFI won Best Rock Video. And for some reason, I was so upset, I couldn’t help it. There’s something about watching my favorite band – a band that was my life for three years – give into propaganda and media that just depresses me to no end. So I cried. And when Davey thanked the Despair Faction, I screamed and threw my favorite shoe at the television.