Decide on a college major and a career

I changed my major to psychology but when I transfer to the University I want to major in social work and minor in psychology. After that I’m planning to continue with psychology unless I can’t then I’ll just get my masters in Social Work. I’m not worried about it anymore. This is what I want to do and I’m not doing anymore research on careers because if not I’m never going to decide. lol.

I decided to stop fighting it and started filling out the application for the Medical Anthropology program at UB. I always loved UB. I always hated Buff State. I also resign myself to the fact that some people have amazing drive that will one day get them rich and everything they have always materially wanted. I am one of those people who has amazing drive but will never be rich. Feeding and helping the homeless has no money in it. At least when I look back on my life though, I can say ” I wish I had had more money”, not “I wish I had spent more time helping people”.

I want to work with homeless people. I would like to change laws, change how people see them, help them. I hate the addiction part, but maybe lobby? Feed? Its always been a dream of mine to open a soup kitchen.

Im going to tell you something and I swear it isnt a joke. 5 1/2 years ago when I met P, I met her because I was in St. Louis interviewing at a Seminary for a either a masters in divinity or a masters in theology. I love religions. I am fascinated by religions. I couldnt decide if I would want to teach or do chaplaincy, but I DID know I didnt want to preach or have a church. No sermons. God loves you, you get it or you dont. You appreciate it or you dont. You believe it or you dont. Fire and brimstone are for idiots who manipulate paritioners into donating money to save their souls. The God I believe in realizes we all screw up, some more severe than others. Depending on how bad is how long and hard the road you need to hoe. Ive always been drawn to street ministry; homeless and mentally ill need someone to help and speak for them, need a little light and love. I thought about prisons, but still feel apprehensive about it. Hospitals, homes for HIV/AIDS victims…you know, the people Christ chose to hang out with. People like me. The ones who doubt and sin and need a little extra help.
So lately, I have been thinking about it again. But, here is my road. Im embarrassed. Im embarrassed to get a degree in that and be a minister. I dont know why to be honest. Money? People look at ministers differently. My friend Jack just keeps telling me that God’s already made his decision and he knew I was stubborn when he chose me. My closest friends love that idea. “If ministers were like you, churchs would be full. People need someone to kick their asses and tell it like it is.” They tell me when I speak, people love to listen. I am caring (which I agree, but to a fault most of the time) and am willing to fight for those who cant fight for themselves.
So I am entertaining it, but cant get past the fact that I am a bit embarrassed and dont know why. Maybe because Im buddhist. But as I have told several people, buddhism is not about the beginning or the end, but the right now. Having Buddhism in my life allows me to make better decisions because I am centered and grounded, hopefully allowing me to be where I would want to be because i was able to make better decisions….maybe this IS a sign…

Its a really bad pic, but the meaning is what I wanted to convey. This woman founded a group called Street Ministers Project in the UK. She is washing a homeless man’s feet, cleaning his cuts and helping him stay well for another night on the streets. THAT is why I still think about it.

One of the good things about the States…for which I usually dont find many, is that even at 35, I can be anything I want to be. If I want to go to graduate school to be a teacher, study public health or even go to culinary school, at 35, that is still possible. I think this is part of my problem. I dont need to be anything I want to be, I just need to be something. So, I guess I will start with my options. These are options that I have considered or have been considering which is why I cannot make a decision.

1. Orinthologist. For those who have lives and dont know what this is, dont feel bad. Geeks like me do. Its a person who studies birds and their behaviors. Cornell has a fantastic program and I still think about it.

2. Environmental Sciences. Anyone who knows me, again, knows that this would be perfect for me. I would love to be a park ranger, right up until I have to put an injured animal down. :/

3. Public Health. I want to be in the peace corp. I also have a deep fascination with malaria. How the crap is malaria even still around when there are vaccines to stop it. Third world countries dont have access and non third world countries are looking to make money…that pisses me off. Still, public health would be wonderful, but a lot of chemistry. Eek.

Thats it that i can think of so far.

Its really not either of those things but you would think it is with the way I keep changing my mind. I’m thinking if I put this goal here and write out my thoughts and options, one will stick. Right now, this going back and forth is bad for my chi. One day its one thing, twenty minutes later its something else.
Im tired of doing statistics in a hospital for the meanest person in the world and making no money. There has to be more to life than this. Apparently it starts with a graduate school degree or being discovered as a waitress in LA and becoming the next Brangelina. Since I dont live in LA, waitress or have lips like that, I better decide on a major.
PS, how the hell do people like Paris Hilton, Lindsey Lohan (cheers to you to Lindsey, one more for the road…) and other worthless wastes of space make all of that money for doing NOTHING? Who decides this?! Its so not fair. I better go look at my “be a better buddhist” goal.

I’m majoring in biology, for what…i have no idea.

university at buffalo.

pharmacy

:)

I’ve been thinking about this every day for the past year. I am considering about a major/career in Speech-Language Pathology. Does anyone have any resources – basically people in the field? It was introduced to me this year and seems interesting. If this is it for me am throwing a party!

I think i might go for an english major. Ill probably go for a double major, but im unsure of what other major i want.