write something every day

I’ve decided that I’m going to use this space to write my daily something. So enjoy :)

Last night I stayed up all night because my ridiculous neighbors were arguing. They argued from 2 AM to freaking 6 AM. I called the cops on them. Twice. But being Orange County cops, no one showed. Lucky for my neighbors I guess. I knew they’d been smoking weed all night. My room reeks of it now. But I was exhausted and even with a huge dose of NyQuil in my system, I couldn’t get any sleep.
My mechanic came and took a look at my car today. It hasn’t been running in over a week. I think the engine’s shot. Yup, I’m getting it replaced hopefully Saturday. I’m in the process of looking for a job, so luckily I don’t have to be anywhere except school for now. I didn’t have class until way later so I spent my day lounging around doing some homework.
I found out when I was leaving class that my girlfriend’s grandma passed away today. So, RIP in her honor.
I’m exhausted, and the neighbors are quiet tonight. I think I shall sleep. Here’s hoping I can keep this good habit going.
Cheers!

Whether it’s a journal entry, a story, or a letter that no one will see. I’m going to start writing every day.

I wrote in my “secret” blog.

I pledge to write something every day from now until I can no longer write. Whether it’s making a list to the store or writing a how-to article, I’m going to be sure to write. I’ve joined eHow and started blogging so that’s a great beginning. Yep, I can do this.

I haven’t written anything in a long time, except for goals, and comments on other people’s goals. While I think that sort of writing is good and helpful, it’s not exactly what I had in mind when I set this goal for myself. I’m supposed to be writing stuff that could someday go into a book.

My mind feels empty. I don’t seem to care anymore. I used to feel so fired up about sharing my gardening ideas with people, but now I feel so hopeless. Like, why would anyone want to hear what I have to say anyhow? Who am I to write a gardening book when I don’t even have a !#$#$@ GARDEN right now???

Makes me want to cry.

(deep breath)

I need to let it go. I need to focus on what I do know, and can do. If I don’t know it or can’t do it, it’s useless to worry about.

Maybe for now I’ll let this goal slide. It’s been sliding for a long time, now, but maybe now I’ll give it PERMISSION to slide. My first goal in communicating my gardening ideas is that I need to GET A GARDEN to begin demonstrating my techniques. Even then, I know it’ll take about two or three years before the benefits really show up.

It’s just so depressing to realize I can’t do something that sounds so simple.

Didn’t do so well this week. I did write something Monday and noodled around one or two other days. Tuesday I took off of everything with inauguration fever.

I’m really not sure how I feel about this goal. Other than ambivalent. But I’ll keep tilting at it for awhile. It’s good to keep the writing on the table, so to speak.

If updating my goals tonight counts, I’ve managed to write “something” everyday this week. I think one of my biggest obstacles to maintaining this practice is the difficulty I have accepting that “something,” that some days, probably most days, I will go to the page, spend some time there, and come away with nothing presentable or even capable of being made presentable. But the practice is the thing and humility enough to submit to it, and a certain hope-springs-eternal-ness that maybe this day I’ll be surprised. On a couple of days where I managed to crowd the writing goal to the end of the day I have crawled into bed with my notebok to write a little before shutting off the light – - not a bad bedtime ritual at all.

know who I am. Writing helps me remember who I was. Writing helps me clarify who I intend to become. Writing helps me set achieveable goals. Writing is my way of helping others.

I am trying to write down enough of my ideas to make a book. Of course I write every day in my journal. I also want to publish articles online, which publicize my ideas and methods, help people, and direct people toward my website.

Every day I want to get 10 pages written (in whichever area I feel like working on that day).

I am pulling out the dusty journal once again.