be an inspiration to others

I feel I have such a strong purpose, but I have difficulty tapping into it. I have these overwhelming thoughts of inadequacy that leave me feeling that I am not “doing something”. I have entrepreneurial goals, philanthropic goals and wealth building goals….I just find it difficult to put it all in perspective and began a concrete plan on attaining these things.

I’ve successfully become an optimistic person. I hate to say it but I used to always be the negative one. I decided to turn that around. At work, I stopped gossiping, I started giving more compliments, I started doing my own job better, and simply just became nicer. The way people treat me has drastically changed for the better too.

So, I’ve been spending all this time becoming more optimistic in my work environment, I figured its about time I start being an inspiration to the people I’m closest to… my family.

I’ve spent a lot of time lately talking to my sister. I’m much older than her, she’s still in high school. I’ve been talking to her about things that are going on in her life and when she wants it, I give her advice. It used to be so easy to ignore her and figure that she’ll be fine, but it is so much more rewarding to really talk to her and get to know her as a friend. I might not have been the best example of how to be a teenager when I was one, but hopefully she can see how I am now and want to end up similar.

OK. I couldn’t take it anymore. I left my new job location and went running back to my old location. I just couldn’t stand everyone’s bad attitudes and no matter how positive I was it didn’t phase them at all!

I don’t want to see this as giving up. I’m just modifying. Its one thing to be an inspiration to one person or even a few people, but when you have about 50 negative attitudes combatting your good intentions the odds of being successful are slim. Not only that, but I didn’t want their negative attitudes to rub off on me.

I think it will be better for me to be an inspiration to others in a different environment anyway. I’m already trying to be an inspiration to some of my fellow students in some of my classes. I’ve offered to help tutor some people.

I’m not doing such a good job at this yet. Sad. My new co-workers are pretty jaded about the company I work with and unfortunatly I have yet to make any impact. In fact, I want to run back to my old location so I can be around my positive friends again.

To be continued…

I just changed locations at my job and I’m trying to get to know the people that I work with now. I’ve found the best way to get to know them is by just smiling. :) Everyone there doesn’t really seem to get along with each other, but maybe I can bring a little positive spirit into that work environment.

Being an inspiration to others is a huge responsibility! I think I’ve found a way to use the internet wisely.

I have an illness called “ulcerative colitis” and for years I’ve been looking for a cure… or at least some answers. There’s no cure for what I have, but there is a way to deal with it through diet and medication.

I am pretty much alone in my struggle until one random night I was looking up my illness on youtube. I have no idea why. Maybe I was looking for new information or news or anything. To my surprise I found a number of video blogger talking about their disease and their struggles and triumphs. I was quickly fascinated by using media to bring awareness to this illness. Why didn’t I think of it?! I mean, media is used to bring awareness to other conditions like cancer, aids, diabetes… why not colitis? So I jumped on the bandwagon and started making my own videos/documentary about colitis. So far the feedback was pleasant. I was half-expecting derogatory comments because… well, its youtube. And when you put yourself out there on Youtube, its almost asking for it. I haven’t received any bad feedback. I’m so relieved!!

but I think I’ll start by being the best person that I can be. :)

I want to leave something with someone when I am gone and forgotten, I want to be a good example for others and be recognized as a role model for others. I want to save lives on an indirect level, and be thanked 60 years later when I am old and gray.

but how can I achieve this? and how will I know, that I’m an inspiration to someone? maybe when I feel, that I’m an inspiration to myself? maybe…

I’ve realized something this past week. All I really want to do in life is inspire people and be inspired. Everything that I’ve enjoyed in the past, whether it was running, writing, watching sports, or singing in the chorus, I did because I felt empowered.

I think it’s a big step for me. I thought I really wanted to help people, and that being compassionate was what I wanted to do—but I realized I wanted to do more than just help people-I wanted to inspire them.

I believe we all have the ability to do great things, we just need the right circumstances to achieve them. And I know I want to be involved in the process if I can make that happen.