learn to love unconditionally

I guess to love unconditionally is to expect nothing in return from the person you’re in a relationship with, even when they hurt you or don’t understand you. I also guess that loving unconditionally means to let another person love you in that way too, regardless of how you may feel at the time.

Right now, I feel like it’s nearly impossible for me. I’ve always expected something in return when I would do something nice for anyone…it’s always been a common ritual of exchange. “You scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours.”

The most troublesome relationship I have right now is with my boyfriend. This is my first romantic relationship and I’ve wanted it to be perfect. I expected him to act a certain way and for our relationship to be ideal (wrong—we’ve weathered quite a few differences already in this short time). However, last night, I discovered that I may not know anything about sustaining or cultivating my relationships with other people.

I got into a fight with him (more like a quarrel) and I hurt him really badly since I dismissed his attempts to help me (I was in a bad mood and he asked me what was wrong, but I didn’t want to answer). So basically, I expected him to always be there for me, but I took the liberty of not letting him care for me? I’m such a hypocrite.

I realize that I tend to be really dismissive and impatient and I can’t seem to look beyond myself sometimes. After that fight, I acknowledge that I have these flaws. I recognize them and I want to fix them.

I will learn to love unconditionally. I need to look past myself and not expect anything in return. I need to be patient and considerate. I need to realize that the other person matters too. I want to be a good girlfriend, a good daughter, a good friend…a good anything.

Easier said than done. But I’m trying.

I try and I try. My husband works 12 hours a day 7 days a week.. Which is great. Except the fact that I’m here alone with the baby all day BORED! He comes home eats, and goes to bed. I can’t help but to get mad. It’s starting to depress me though. I can’t sleep a wink while he gets 9 hours everynight. I haven’t slept yet tonight and it’s 4 17 in the morning damn it…. what should I do about this?

I have tried to do this, so far unsuccessfully. I just get frustrated. I actually said I hate someone today. See? Not going so well.

So, I’ve decided to address the things in my self that causes me to not love unconditionally, and then work out those issues. Even if I don’t end up loving unconditionally, I will have grown personally from having unravelled a part of myself.

How miserably hard, yet wonderfully easy and freeing it is when those moments of unconditional love appear. I want to experience this someday…

i loooveee you boo boo bear :) forever and ever and everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!MUAH*

If I loved myself truly, deeply, and unconditionally, would it naturally follow that I would love others unconditionally? In any case, I will strive to love both myself and others without judgement, expectation.

Once upon a time I thought no problem why hate! Now I think my dog can do this better then me.

This is getting more and more difficult.

I believe my purpose of this life is to love unconditionally to all. I want to learn to be compassionate and non judgemental towards people. Understand their compulsions causing specific actions and love them though they donot confirm to my belief of right or wrong. Though I tend to expect to be loved when i love someone, i want to get over with it and just love unconditionally because thats thats the most blissful emotion we are blessed with.

i need to learn how to love my exboyfriend uncnditionally, learn how to make him happy and make it so he can “deal” with me. im a codependant, i really depend on him for my happiness, always want to be around him and all. i do love him so much, even after all the wrong he’s done to me. but i have to learn alot more, and i have to learn how to love unconditionally, tolerate, and forgive above all.