stop being jealous

I saw many ladies shopping today with cute, little babies. I still want to be in a better situation before I have kids. But it’s hard not to want one when you see the loving look in the mother’s eyes and how cute the babies are. I just thought to myself “good for those mothers, I’ll have mine in time.” I also saw some pictures of these girls I used to be roommates at college with. They were having lots of fun with their new roommate. I miss them and some aspects of living on a college campus. But I just told myself, “good for them.”

Today I had an opportunities to be jealous when I saw the things many people that I know posted online about how great their husbands and their little babies are. I want my man to marry me. I want babies. But I’m waiting until my relationship isn’t so rocky and I have more money and am done with college. It’s so hard to see all these people I went to school with already getting some of the things I want and flaunting it everywhere. It’s hard to wait even though I feel as if I must.

Today I decided whenever I see someone with something I want, I’m just gonna say to myself “good for them” and stop thinking about it. No need to dwell on what other people have that I don’t.

jealous of other girls that my boyfriend is friends with or I see him talking to!
jealous of other people because I think they are smarter or look better than me…........its all very unhealthy, and pretty darn tring actually!! so it ends here…hopefully!!

total regression on this. should probably re-add to goals list. fuck me.

I was very jealous for a long time, but now I’m doing much better.
First of all I just had to get a bit more self-confidence.
I realized that I’m a great girlfriend and that it would be my boyfriends loss, if he cheated at me and not at all my fault.
So once I had this confidence, I started to really believe what my boyfriend says and I now know, that I can trust him.
It makes life much easier and I now see, that I’ve been acting like a fool.
I’m still a little bit jealous, but I think I will be doing fine soon.

I’ve got to stop this before I ruin my friendships. I’ve got to accept that a girl can say no to you and yes to someone else. I’ve got to realise that this does not make me an inferior person in any way. I’ve got to stop my jealousy from dictating my moods and emotions, and how I end up treating people who mean something to me.

I know that jealousy stems from low self-esteem and insecurity. I’m working on getting those up; see my other goals e.g beating depression, being more sociable.

I can do this, and so can all of you!

He didnt text or ring last night so I am miserable AGAIN!!! One text and I would be happy but he can’t even be bothered to do that – feeling a little under appreciated/crap/miserable at the moment….

One phone call and I have big smile – didnt question him – said I might speak to him later…. bit chuffed with myself at the moment for not being a questioning bitch

I am in a fairly new relationship with a guy younger than me and I assume he should want to spend a lot of time with me but because of the age gap he spends a lot of time at work, with mates, footy etc. I am seeing less and less of my friends and driving myself and close friends mental with my jelousy. When we first got together he was always txting and ringing – now it’s always me who texts or calls – occasionally he will text or ring – we see each other two or three times a week so there really is no reason to text and ring but I like a goodnight text or call and if he doesnt it is obviously because he is with another girl/texting another girl!! And if he doesnt answer his phone he is obvioulsy with someone else!! it’s driving me mad and making me so miserable and I am going to lose him if I dont sort this out!