I lie in bed in the mornings, sometimes, dwelling on the past, and stuff I’d like to change. What a stupid way to start the day! I get up all melancholy, when I eventually manage to drag myself out of my wallowing self pity. I know it’s a waste of emotions, and most of the time, I manage to be quite an upbeat, cheery kind of girl.
It’s stupid things like kissing the wrong guy at new years, or letting someone throw away some treasure love letters that I really should have held on to, or not telling my ex boss to get stuffed when she gave me a hard time in front of the customers when I handed in my notice (I have spent god knows how many hours making up great come backs and put downs, rescripting entire scenes for that one!)
I need to just forget that stuff – why do I still care? Some of that was more than 10 years ago!
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“i’m sorry” i say this to every and anybody i have ever hurt in my life i’m sorry for the lies, the cheating on people who loved me the cheating on tests..to my parents…and friends but most of all i’m sorry for hurting myself and letting other people hurt me i’m sorry for my past mistakes, my present mistakes..and the ones that i will most likely make in the future…”IM SORRY”
The best way to try and forgive yourself is to ask forgiveness of the people you’ve wronged. I learned that today in a very real way. I hurt one of my best friends in a bad way, and he didn’t know until today… and when I told him, I found out exactly how good a friend he realy is. He forgave me when I couldn’t even forgive myself.
I spend too much of my time thinking of the things I wish never happened~ I have forgiven myself most of the mistakes I’ve made… I need to forgive myself for everything~ but sometimes it just doesn’t seem possible, like I shouldn’t forgive myself… it would make me feel so much better if I could just forgive and let go… why am I so hard on myself? I need some sort of advice on ways of forgiveness…
