regain my zest for life

or maybe it’s just the summer.. who knows? who cares? I’m ok now and I’m working to improve my life..

I run and run. I never get to do everything that I have to do. My life is so intense but devoid of pleasure. I really need to regain my zest for life.

After a tough few months, I’m getting there.

as I feel pretty zesty lately. Been sort of overly cheerful, and probably due to being hopped up on sugar, but, taking it off my list and seeing how long I can remain zesty!

I think I’ve done it.

I managed to make it 12 hours with a guy joined to my hip (figuratively that is).
And I kept my good sense of humor.

I’ve got several people wanting to join me in my super secret running goal!

and I feel pretty good.

One to two more weeks and I’m going to mark this as done done.

Feeling a bit more zesty today.

The last few weeks could have just been a long PMS…

We shall see.

signs of my recent annoyance/misery/inability to suck it up.

I say this only because I was asking the doctors if they knew what happened to my patient (she had been gone to a procedure for approximately 5 hours…which is a loooong time.) and the night shift physician got up from report and cam enad hugged me.
I was ultimately surprised that he did this and di it infront of everyone else. So I said, gee I must look bad. An he said, yes, this morning you looked pretty awful…

Must get out of my funk. Perhaps some Parliment Funkadelic would help….perhaps not.

I am having a short meeting with the Operations director, because I am frankly so pissed off with one of our assistant managers. In truth, I think we are all feeling the stress of not enough staff, the huge construction project, and a large volume of patient flow and very sick patients. (an example, we triage from level one to level 5, level 5 you could wait for 10 years to see a physician without a change in your status, level 1 you are not really breathing.) all the patients in our department were level 2….( breathing but with the potential to stop).

I want to be able to express this, and maybe we can come up with a solution so the whole department can be treated with a bit more respect….I think probably I lost my zest during my long overtime at work….but if I can make things better, its possible that this will be positive all around. I’m worried about sounding like a whiner.

exhaustion. Too much work. bad situations at work. Grumpy and teary eyed this am, tired, tired of managers acting like asses. (ok so only one the rest are grrreat.)
Total lack of ability today to suck it up and deal.

Much better day today despite a lot of yucckiness at work, definitely getting there.