some friends just gave me four hundred dollars. this is the biggest gift, money wise, that anyone outside of my family has ever given me. i burst into tears when i got it because i felt so loved. i’ve been working on giving and on receiving. it feels challenging to accept so much. i will just be kind to myself and sit with my feelings, pray about the whole thing and see what i am truly inspired to do. there are a lot of shoulds in my head about not accepting, appropriateness, etc. but i don’t want to live from convention or habit or fear. i want to do what is the most loving and authentic thing. and that might be saying, “thank you” and moving on. breathe… 5 years ago