ummm, not always easy to receive
23 months ago
some friends just gave me four hundred dollars. this is the biggest gift, money wise, that anyone outside of my family has ever given me. i burst into tears when i got it because i felt so loved. i’ve been working on giving and on receiving. it feels challenging to accept so much. i will just be kind to myself and sit with my feelings, pray about the whole thing and see what i am truly inspired to do. there are a lot of shoulds in my head about not accepting, appropriateness, etc. but i don’t want to live from convention or habit or fear. i want to do what is the most loving and authentic thing. and that might be saying, “thank you” and moving on. breathe…
