be brave

I feel like I’ve taken a lot of chances lately – by trusting someone, sharing my secrets and letting go of things that I’ve held so close for so long. And I’m letting myself love someone completely – and believe everything he tells me. I feel like these are brave steps to take and I feel ready to take them.

The hardest part is getting myself into situations where I know I might have to be brave. I’m always rather reluctant to make the effort. However, when I’m faced with a difficult situation, bravery comes naturally.
The past weeks have taught me that I can face a lot more on my own than I thought. They have also showed me the limits of my strength (I always get sick when under too much stress) and how much I appreciate people who support me in difficult situations.
I’m not always brave, but I have gained confidence in my ability to be brave and I’m sure that it will influence a lot of my future decisions, so I’m marking this goal as done.

today i stood up for myself, spoke my mind, and didn’t compromise. wasn’t easy, but i felt strong. and maybe a little brave:)

I’m making progress on this. I am admitting my vulnerabilities.
If I have to hold a presentation and stumble over the words, I take a break, smile (which is kind of like admitting as opposed to not acknowledging anything) and carry on.
I now sometimes push the boundaries with people I want to get closer to by honestly talking about myself, so they can open up and talk about themselves if they like to. (I used to be quite the opposite.)
I’m going to Portugal alone for a language course, even though I’m apprehensive about not being able to communicate very well.

Do you know that I have no idea what this means? I just know that there have been moments in my life where I wish I had listened to myself or spoke up when I didn’t. I don’t ever want to be in that position again. I vow to be as honest as I can with myself, so that I can be honest with others and act bravely.

i found out yesterday that i’m going to have to leave here sooner than i thought. my brother and sister-in-law want to get back to normal family life soon after the baby is born in novemeber. that means more planning and upheaval. i want to be ready for it this time. it’s hard to think about the future when it all seems so daunting and unknown.

it’s hard being here, but i’m staying. i think that’s brave.

I had been putting off getting an application for a job i really wanted/needed for a lot of reasons, but yesterday i got the app and i handed it in today. When i got home there was a message on my phone to come in as soon as possible for an interview. Ususally i would find a reason to put it off. But i got dressed right then and there and went.

I was nervous but i think it went well. This was a big deal for me. And it took some courage.. Especially cuz i’ve been putting it off for so long. But when i added this to my list i was thinking of a much bigger form of bravery, So im not marking it off as done or anything but i thought this was a good small step.

this was kind of scary, but really fun. I’m surprised I was up for it, because I won’t usually do stuff like that if there aren’t any seatbelts or anything.

I am turning into a wimp :((
My 43T list is full of adventures. I have done some of them in the past. But lately I have been a chicken. I don’t watch horror or suspense movies coz I get scared, nervous. Not good. I wasn’t like this. I gotta change this. I have to put adventure back in my life.