change my life

i hate my life. i am utterly bored with it and i know i am not being what i want to be in this life. I just need something to change, actually i need everything to change. I’m gonna reinvent my self and my life. Everything needs to change. and im not gonna wait another second i am gonna start right now by doing the following things…

-work on accomplishing everything on my list
-being true to who i am (no matter how cliche it sounds)
-chasing my dreams with everything i have.
-believing i can do anything i set my mind to
-surrounding myself with ppl who treat me right
-facing my fears(big and small)
-not accepting less than i deserve
-knowing that i don’t need a guy to vindicate myself
-telling myself that i am worth someone’s effort
-stop living life on auto-pilot …..

and so much more

My aunt and uncle say I can feel free to move in with them down in Florida. I can stay for as long as it takes me to get a job and find a place to settle. I’d love to go back to Florida. It’s a very tempting offer. But I feel bad for leaving my parents, brother, Jennifer and the baby. I know that I will see them often still. I guess I’m just looking for excuses, like I always do. I don’t want to keep feeling stuck where I am. I’m trying to go down there with my mom next month to stay with them for a few days.

Then of course there are all the friends I’ve made here. I’ve never been very good at making new friends, and I will miss them. The chances of me seeing them again aren’t as high as my immediate family, of course. Especially the people I work with. But someone once told me that some people are only meant to be in our lives for a little while. A friend at work told me that actually.

The picture is of my aunt at Madame Tussauds wax museum on our trip to New York City.

i’ve been doing lots of things lately that i haven’t done in the past. i’ve re-enrolled in school. i’m planning to study abroad. i’ve been getting out more. i’ve been getting more excercise. i’ve been eating better. i’ve been making my health a priority.. which is a big big change. but it’s not enough.
i know that there’s not any one single little thing that i can do that will make everything suddenly perfect… but i’m soo happy and proud of myself right now for taking my baby steps…

I am always holding myself back with fear. Recently, I have been trying to be more open minded. I hope this will help me “blossom” and be able to change my life.

I just signed the lease on my first apartment with my boyfriend and took my placement testing at UofM Dearborn. I am changing my life one step at a time while we speak. My goals for now are to have a stable place to live from here on out instead of moving around from place to place. I would also like to finish college and then earn a MSW.

MB’ Fashion is a unique and upcoming clothing line. (MB- Monica Brooks)
My company carries a magnificent and distinguished style in clothing. MB’ Fashion has brilliant ideas that have been thought up, and thought through carefully and will coincide well with what people of all age ranges wear today. When I first started MB’ fashion I didn’t have a clue where to begin. But just because didn’t know where to start, didn’t mean that this would stop me because I’ve always had faith in myself to do this. At first I tried bringing MB’ fashion design out by myself, but it wasn’t long before I found that I couldn’t do it alone. So I began to work with an agent who has from London that tried helping me; but unfortunately that didn’t work out very well. At that point I knew I had to wait patiently for everything to work itself out. While waiting, another company had gotten wind of what it was I was trying to accomplish but wanted more money from me just to get started. So I took my business elsewhere. They tried sending me a contract and ask me to sign without going into much detail. Also on a sneak tip tried to be the boss of my company. It was more of how much I was willing to dish out then they were ready to talk business, by that point I was ready to walk and I did. Still waiting of course the last company I interacted with continuously called me and I pay the phone calls no attention. A little while later I decided to attend college for the first time, so that I could acquire some of the skills needed to create and run a successful business. So as it stands now I am currently attending classes at Westwood College majoring in Interior Design and Architecture. My ultimate goal is to build a separate business and building onto MB’ fashion design and clothing line. I’ve always wanted to own a big company and be able to call it my own and know that everything in it is set up to my liking. MB’ Fashion Design is going to become an unstoppable and on going business. My business is going to keep customers satisfied, curious, and coming back for more. Not to brag but MB’ Fashion is going to be worldwide and be a top seller. My first and final business is going to be very professional and filled with articulate and creative, hard working individuals that are going to bring new flavor into the world. There is a certain someone who keeps me motivated and that person is Mr. Rufus Morris. Just seeing his work has encouraged me and helped me to think outside the box and to never give up no matter how hard things get. Thanks to him I feel like there is nothing in this world that I cannot do, and dreams really do come true, because I will be working one on one with him sooner that I think. About 3 years ago, going to school, raising a daughter, preparing to run a respectable business, and taking care of myself, and creating designs for the world to love would have been a hell of a lot for me, but thanks to Mr. Rufus Morris and a helping hand from a brilliant professor of mines Mrs. Gwinn I know that nothing but success is coming my way! I know it’s a little bit early for this but I want to thank everyone who has stuck by me and helped me up when I fell and for those who showered me with nothing but love when those who supposedly loved me showed me nothing but hate THANK YOU. I will make it; I will be someone and something. MB’s Fashion and Design is the next best thing and nothing or no one will stop my dream. I am going to continue to work and those who have no faith in me will only motivate me to work even harder, so to all who have faith in me once again I thank you and first and form most I have to thank my gracious lord and savior for giving me the strength to make it this far and further. Without him I wouldn’t have it in me to continue. Thank you father. Also be that as it may, my current situation is only something to inspire those around me who have similar dreams, to keep going until you get them. I know I will and I have. I won’t settle for less, because I don’t believe this is my best. My best is when I have nothing left to want because everything is what I’m giving away due to the abundance that the lord has blessed me with. MB’s fashion line is nothing less than success.

By Monica

I have changed my life for the better. I have more friends, I’m more optimistic… the only thing that may have been affected is my studies, but it can’t all be rainbows and butterflies, I guess!

I just finished my first college degree. It feels great but unfortunately it isn’t something I can get a job with, since it’s only an Associates. However, it was my first step toward changing my life.

can i change my life if im not happy with it

I believe I am a blessed person. I believe I can be anything and anyone that I chose to be in this life. i God but wonder why things are not going as they should.

Today I have discovered something about myself…..I worry too much about making things perfect….and never let God do what needs to be done.

I am sure that I have missed dozens of blessings because I thought I could “HANDLE IT”

Today I have decided that I will let God do his part…..I’ll just let him know my heart’s desire!