i took 5 drops of xanax
later i had a beer
and smoked a cigarette 9 months ago
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It has been decades since the last time I was here….I got my bachelor degree and find a good job a lot of people may think…but I still find myself a little unhappy….....Because everything is perfect for me now unless I dont see my prince coming foe me…where is he???? I have been waiting for him since my childhood…..should I just start a ralationship that I was not that like him,.,,,I think is not…since I havnt had a ralationship before….Chinese girls who is very traditional will be very serious about that…...so please show up please find please come to me my prince!!!! 14 months ago
When I started thinking about changing my life, I realized that I’m don’t even know what kind of person I want to be, and how I want to change my life. But during these past 5 months I’ve actually done quiet well with figuring out what kind of person I want to identify myself with and it feels really good cause now it feels like I can find and develope myself. 17 months ago
There are so many people that think money, good work, no debts would make they life better.
I have paid out debts (it tooks me 2 years)
I like a lot my work
I have money…
...and I’m not happy at all.
The reason I’ve added this goal is to find what makes me happy. Perchance, what makes us (people) happy. 19 months ago
I’ve Quit my job, you know that one I’ve hated forever…yeah that one! I finally got the guts to throw the towel in…no i just need to start looking for a new one.
_ Happy Times. 21 months ago
its going extremely well. I didn’t try and change everything in one go like I’ve done in the past. I’ve paced myself changing one thing at a time.
What I’ve achieved:
-I have bags more energy
-I’m doing rather than saying I’ll do (though I still have to work on this)
-I’m content 22 months ago
a big word and when I love someone I never hold back. But I’ve never learnt to love myself to be honest its never crossed my mind but I was watching a video on YouTube by Matthew Hussey about confidence, which before I watched this I believed I had. I didn’t, maybe I had that outer layer of confidence, that surface layer that everyone sees maybe I have that middle layer he mentions. I’ve never had that base layer, I think that’s why people’s words cut so deep sometimes because I’ve never had that base level of confidence. I do now :) I think the word to describe me right at this moment is serene.
Can’t remember the last time I felt serene.
I love Me. :) That sounds egoistic but I don’t care because everybody should knows how amazing it feels to truely love yourself.
Peace and Love Mia. x 22 months ago
I am totally wanting to change my life, I just have no idea what to do. I have tried praying, exercise, counselling and hoping thing would change. I have tried being someone else I mean literally became someone else for a year, I behaved exactly the opposite of how I had my whole life, and still end up in the same place, just a different time. I just want to change, really change and be a more productive ..lol 23 months ago
Gonna be abroad for 5 months so it’s a perfect opportunity to really change my life and myself. No one knows me here so no one is here to judge me. I just have to work hard so I don’t miss this opportunity. 23 months ago
- stick with the changes I make
- to be organised in action as well as on paper
- to be assertive with my loved ones
- get my skin under control
- sort out my h/t
t.b.c 23 months ago
ahhhh sometimes I just want to scream I can’t take it anymore I hate it. I hate it all ! Sometimes I feel just to take what little money I have and just run away from it all uni, my family, my friends, a job I hate so much I’d rather stick pin in my eyes than go back to…go somewhere beautiful and far away where no one knows me. Somewhere I can be free and not to have to worry about how my actions will affect someones feelings or perceptions of me. Somewhere where I don’t need to worry about mind games and power plays. A place where I can be truely me and only that, just that. I haven’t been me in a long time and I lost myself somewhere on that road and I just can’t seem to find myself.
I miss that naive person I used to be that could always see the good in people. I miss the confident person I used to be that didn’t give a f**k what anyone thought of her. I miss that girl. A girl I would be proud to be friends with, a girl I would be proud to call my sister.
I think I’ve finally woken up and I need to find balance in my life…I need to change.
Those that don’t change with me don’t deserve to be in my life, and they don’t deserve to be part of it.
Everytime it gets hard I will look on these words because once the tears have dried I don’t want to forget. 23 months ago