change my life

I’ve just recently entered my first year of university. This is the very first time that I’ve been completley on my own, I’ve never been this far away from my family and friends before. I feel so lonely all the time. It seems like I’m invisible, like I’m no one. I haven’t made any friends at all. I know I’m shy but everyone needs a friend. I try to call my family alot, just so that I have someone to talk to, but they have lives of their own and are always busy. I want to change my life so bad. Right now I feel like my life is all for no reason at all. I don’t have anyone to talk to, it feels like no one cares about me at all. I know this isn’t true, but it just hurts being this alone all the time. I want to change my life so bad, and hopefully I will be able to. I don’t want to be like this forever.

I had a bit of a ‘ah-ha’ moment the other day. I was pondering the fact that I haven’t had a relationship in a great while, and then when someone shows interest, it seems to be an instant turn-off. And I think I’ve realized why this is…it’s because of my self-image. I don’t really like myself. I hate my body, I feel stagnant, and I am generally not happy with where I am, both physically and mentally. So, when someone shows an interest in me, I think, “How could they possibly like me if I don’t even like myself?”
Well, I need to change that. I feel like I’ve denied myself allot of things because of my low self-image. I think that if I changed how I saw myself, and learned to love myself, my life would change a great deal. It won’t be easy, but nothing worth doing ever is. I’m not quite sure how I’m going to go about this, but I know that exercise and diet will play a big part. Also, having a job would help so I wouldn’t feel so ashamed of being unemployed. Learning to love myself will probably be a slow change, but it will be one worth making.

If there are about 9 billion people on this insane planet why in the world do i feel so damn isolated. I mean we’re all human beings right, so we should at least have that in common and be able to make relationships with each other from there. But i feel so different from everyone else. Almost like I’m never gonna find anyone that I can relate to. And that’s a terrible thing to feel.

Don’t get me wrong i enjoy being by myself a lot of the time. But there is a difference between Solitude and Loneliness. Everyone needs to have people in there lives who love them unconditionally and whom they love unconditionally. I think we were all born that way, we just can’t live a full life without companionship.
Everyone needs friends even loners.

Can someone please tell me when living got this hard? I mean i wish i could just forget about the messed up shit, live by the philosophy of Always Love, and that would be that. You know, Just go with the flow and somehow everything would fall into it’s place at the right time. Unfortunately it’s never that simply, at least not for me.

When we were kids we just simply lived life. We didn’t complicate things. Ever since I was old enough to have a philosophy on life, I had always believed that Life was complicated. But now I’m wondering if maybe Life isn’t complicated, we just make ourselves believe that it is. I wish i could hold on to that child like mentality.

If only we could all live like Peter Pan!!

Everyone once in a while, I get really restless. I don’t mean, “gee, I wish I could be somewhere else today” sort of restless, I mean the, “If I don’t get out of here, I’m going to lose my mind” sort of restless. I feel completely stuck in a rut, doing the same routine day after day, and I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything that I really wanted to do. I’m realizing lately just how unhappy I am in my current situation.
The first step to changing this is definitely to find myself a job somewhere. I’ve been searching, but not very earnestly. Starting next week, I’m really going to be hitting the pavement and going all over, applying wherever I can. If I could get a job by the end of the month, that would be fabulous.
Then, I need to set aside some money. I’d pay off my loan first, and then I’d set aside all but $50 of each paycheck in savings. My goal is to save $900/month so that by the end of next year, I’d have a pretty nice nest egg.
Finally, my goal is to be out and on the road by March of 2011. I’d work right up until a few days before I left so I’d have as much money on hand as possible. Then, I’d fly to Europe and start traveling. I feel like if I could just spend a year or so overseas, trekking around, that everything would change.
After the traveling, I don’t really care what happens. I would probably come back, save for a while more, then buy a house and settle into a fairly regular routine. (Though, not too regular, or I’d go batty.)

I would like to lose a bit of weight. I don’t care how much I weigh, exactly, its just how I look. Would like a flat stomach, for starters, now I think about it. Will begin geading towards this goal by drinking 2 litres of water a day to reduce bloating. I found a good goal-making website somewhere, and think I should use their goal-making system to motivate and inspire me.

ok im called adam and im 14 years old and i want to change my life but i just dont no how to.for the past couple of month ive been putting my mum and dad frew hell ive been getting in trouble with the police and not long ago i got done for robery.but getting done for robery hasent taught me a thing.i need help to change my life before i end up going to prison over doing stuped things

Lately I’ve been really depressed because I’m so very unhappy with so many things in my life. But I need to just stop with all this self pity and realize that I’m in control of my own life. I’ve always said that if there’s something in your life that you don’t like change it. So I guess i should take my own advice.

I Have made some good changes in my life in the past couple of months which include:

-Getting A Job
-Fixing A Friendship With Someone that Was Once My Best Friend
-Liking a Guy Who Isn’t a complete Asshole (even if it didn’t work out in the end)
-Losing 10 pounds
-Getting Closer With My Sister
-Finishing Driving School
-Working Harder to catch up in school

There are some other small things that have changed but I’m still far away from where i want to be. But i am happy with the little progress i have had. As the saying goes “The person who moves a mountain Starts by carrying small Stones” ....

I think have many stones to go, and A couple of boulders too.

I will continue my life changed when I am no longer afraid to do the things I love.

“The key to change… is to let go of fear.”

Im a young man just trying too hard to figure it all out. I feel like im searching for something, but i dont know what it is. I wake up and i want it, I go to sleep at night and i dream about it. I need it. My mind is always on the hunt. I feel like the person i am now will never find it. The real me cant reach it. this makes me constantly lie. lying to change myself. I lie to people who dont know the real me. I can be anybody i want to be. At work im the cool guy or the chick magnet, at school im the party animal, and at my families im the tough guy with no fear. I lie so much i hate my true self. I hate myself for not being real but fake. Im always pretending to be someone else. This makes me idolize real people and real emotions. I want that. i want to be real! I want to take my plastic heart out and fill my body with my pure blood. I want people to like me for me not just one of the made up characters. I want the real things in life. i want to change my whole life.