be less sensitive

Not everyone is trying to hurt me. I just have to keep that in mind. I have to be able to think more rationally. Some things may come out wrong such as an attack or harsh criticism but could very well be for my advantage. I have to remember that people may not see things the way that I do and that is okay. There should just be more communication.

I really have to learn to “let the little things go”. If I deal better, if I at least don’t let it show that something has bothered me, then it’ll go away anyway. If I DWELL on it, and keep analyzing it etc etc…. it won’t go away, it’ll just mess me up. So I need to learn how to stop doing that. I just need to ignore negative things. If something is stupid/pointless – so what? It’s more than likely a “little thing” and thefore doesn’t REALLY matter, it was just my brain THINKING it mattered, it’s a pattern I HAVE to get out of….. and it’s not my fault, it’s just the way I am…. but I can deal better, I know I can. It’s just not likely to be easy.

If it’s already good, and you try to make things ‘better’, you could actually end up making things worse?

Oh boy.

Also – don’t analyze things so much. Avoid negative emotions, or deal with it on your own… seriously, what good does bringing others into it do? Unless you can do it calmly, if you just get upset/angry, if you over-react…. yes, you can make things worse than if you just MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT YOU’VE GOT (that’s all you can do mostly, isn’t it?). There are little things, and there are big things. At least if the little things (ahh, reminds me of a Good Charlotte song!) don’t bug you, the big things can… but even the big things that bug you, you have to deal in a better way that you are doing. I KNOW that if you ruin things, by just getting clouded by “emotions” (many, because you’re very sensitive…), then something that, sometimes at least shouldn’t even matter at all, gets blown into this big thing and just makes things not good, for you and anyone else who happened to be involved. THINK ABOUT IT – BUT DON’T THINK ABOUT IT. OK that makes sense… basically, don’t over think, some things you just LET GO! Maybe not everything, but if there is something, don’t just bottle it up until you can’t anymore and then blow off steam, there has to be a better way. Take things as they come.

Anger: “Getting angry doesn’t solve anything”.
Sadness: “When I get sad I stop being sad and be AWESOME instead. True story.”

I know it’s easier said than done…. but HOLD ON.

For someone naturally very sensitive, emotional, deep… it’s not going to be a walk in the park. I can’t just switch off completely and be “apathetic” or “cold”... I wouldn’t even WANT to be, that’s true. I have PASSION… but with passion, great JOY can come, but also great SADNESS. I just have to LEARN. I have to CONTROL MYSELF. I have to WORK IT OUT AS RATIONALLY AS I CAN OR SIMPLY IGNORE IT. It shouldn’t be hard. It IS, sometimes, but even if it’s hard doesn’t mean it can’t be done. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. For my sake first and foremost, and for others’ sake. People may mis-understand me, but don’t give them any more reason to. I am not possesive, I am not clingy… I just like company, but only if I’m happy being with said person (obviously).

You can’t change anyone else, you can only change yourself. I don’t even WANT to “change” myself, ‘mostly’ (a lot I just COULDN’T or WOULDN’T change, but that’s mostly the more positive stuff!), but I certainly have to control certain aspects of my personality….

Jealousy
Sadness
Anger
Fear
etc

NEGATIVE

Positive thinking.

No, life will NEVER be perfect. That’s not negative, that’s just TRUE.. but PLEASE, do not make things harder for yourself than they have to be. Sometimes you do, sometimes you don’t.

At least by ADMITTING that sometimes I do (without meaning to, OBVIOUSLY), then all I can do is WORK AT THAT. As hard as it may/will be. Although really, a lot of times… it shouldn’t be. If you can’t understand it, ignore it? Try to understand? Infact, sometimes DON’T, because maybe you never will… that is what analyzing is, trying to understand, and sometimes you can’t, so there’s no point in trying… whether it’s about YOU or SOMEONE ELSE.

Try and don’t give up. Don’t succumb to negativity if you can possibly avoid it. Don’t let it win, if you can.

PROFOUND, huh?

If all else fails – just THINK happy? Distract yourself. Music sometimes helps, but it has to be the right sort. Believe it’ll be OK, better than OK… you’ve been happy, you’ll BE happy! BE HAPPY!!

This is jumbled, but it also makes a lot of sense – so BELIEVE IT!

I am me, that’s all I can be. The TRUE me is; nice, sensitive (in a GOOD way), creative, loving, passionate (again, in a good way), funny, loves myself, crazy (IN A GOOD WAY), deep and emotional (but again, in a good way).
Even though, with positivity there WILL be negativity sometimes… but only sometimes… and I’m sure it can be dealt with better?

I can get defensive easily when questioned, targeted, or falsely accused. My boss and others believe this defensive reaction is a sign of guilt, so they discount any genuine plea. I’m sure there are times that this may be a truism about guilt, and that I have been correctly evaluated, however it’s when I am not guilty it makes me most mad to be incorrectly judged.

Yup, me. Very sensitive about almost anything and everything. I just want to be much less sensitive about things, this way I’ll be able to think clearly in any situation.

Deep down inside sometimes I realize things aren’t a personal attack against me however, I still tend to internalize a lot and my feelings are sometimes easily bruised. Working on this!
The fact that i am so tender with certain matters is ultimately an indication of past wounds not totally healed. YES, I’m self-diagnosing myself. I’m working on it!!!!

So the other half has been harping me to grow a backbone and not take everything so personally. Sounds easy, but I know that it is not. I hope I can work this out quickly as it is causing major issues at home, work, school, and with life in general.

I have improved in this, in that I do not take things personally for very long. I realize that the only reason I am upset is because I am being too sensitive, and I get over it quickly. I would like to work on simple things not bothering me in the first place

My last entry on this was 3 years ago, and there hasn’t been much difference since.

People try their best to hurt me, and they always win.

(It’s part of the job when you work in a hospital)