be the best mommy i can be

I am a young,single mom of two healthy little boys (they will be turning three in October). Caleb Michael and Carter Matthew. They are my world.

I just wanted to write about how I hope to be the best mommy I can be. It’s hard being a young mom, especially at my age. Sometimes I feel like a 40 year old trapped in a 21 year olds body. While my friends are off graduating college and talking about all these awesome bars… I’m off babbaling about what they boys did at daycare, and how they are going potty like big boys.

I realized at a young age that their is more to life than parties and being drunk. I work really hard for the things I have… and for the things I dont have. I thank god every day and just pray that I can be the best mommy I can possibly be.

I wouldnt have it any other way, I love you Caleb and Carter!

My son was born at 24 weeks which is 6 months. He is at the University of Louisville Hospital in the NICU. He was born March 24, 2007 weighing 1 lb and 13 oz. He is growing like a weed, but I would be lying if I said it was easy. This has been the hardest time of my life, knowing that my son is fighting for his life. He is such a wonderful, good natured baby. I couldnt measure the love I have for him. I live 2 and a half hours away from the hospital. So its hard driving there and back with low finances, and gas prices so high. I would like to be there so much more, but I work part time at Wal-Mart, and I just graduated from high school in may, and I am trying to find a good online college to go to, because I know that his future depends on me, and I want him to have everything I never had.