This is probably the number one thing that I dislike the most about myself lately. It’s not an easy thing for me to get passed, either. I am trying, though. And I think that maybe in the last couple of days I’ve made a small improvement.
Step by step. To see a person, not a gender.
I know I can do it. Just gotta keep pushing.
Aug 20, 2008, 09:41PM PDT | 3 cheers | 3 comments
It seems that other people struggling with this goal are “afraid he’s looking at other women” and get jealous or paranoid which I can understand, but for me it’s a different form of trust.
If I’m going to go hang out with my friends and they ask me if I wanna come I go “Sure! Who all is going?” When they say there’s going to be guys I almost immediately go “Oh. Well, I don’t know.”
It’s almost like a fear. I don’t know what I’m afraid of. Most people are “afraid of being hurt.” Is that it? I’m not sure. Now that I’m older and I’ve grown into my own person I am in control. I can finally say I have tackled my past and am finally ready.
So now I need an opportunity for a test run. It’s time to make a leap of faith and trust. I say I believe in equality so I should be able to trust a man just as well as I can a woman, right? It’s wrong of e to be more suspicious of someone because of their gender. I don’t like being like that so I’ve decided to stop.
It’s time to make it happen. :]
Aug 05, 2008, 01:33AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
i have serious issues with trusting men! i mean in my young age i’ve almost come to a point where i just dont care…but i dont know! its kinda a good thing that i care less now but i just get so jealous and frustrated and PARANOID! it ruins things big time. like a slow disease rotting every relationship to the core…
Mar 16, 2008, 01:09PM PDT | 0 comments
Who has never had a boyfriend. I’m seeking them out though now, but I know what most men are really after. That at my age, most men don’t seek love. They seek something else if you know what I mean. I just don’t wanna be used in that way, and plus, as a Christian, I believe in staying a virgin until marriage, which I will continue to do. I’m just so afraid to trust a man because he might use me, and when I don’t give him his way on that subject, he might break my heart and walk away. I just sometimes wonder if there is such thing as a man who is looking for love and not sex.
Aug 11, 2007, 11:47AM PDT | 0 comments
I just basically trust almost anyone!
Jul 19, 2007, 06:41PM PDT | 0 comments
i hate when my man looks at other women when im with him. Its not the womens fault that they are attractive and i know i am too but i have issues with that. I hate being like this cuz its ruining my life relationships with men. I rather be alone then deal with my jealousy but i dont want to be single for the rest of my life cuz i dont trust men. Any advice?
May 15, 2007, 02:01PM PDT | 0 comments