not argue with my ex-husband.

My ex and I are getting along great now that he broke it off w/ the 3some girl. We are not getting back together, but we are redeveloping the friendship we’ve had since I was 6. It’s been sooooo worth it.

I haven’t had to argue with him too much lately…just a little, but I can’t seem to stop having dreams about him. Not dirty dreams, but dreams that he and I are back together. And I’m not even thinking about him before I go to sleep. It’s been about 3-4 times in a row now. Creepy.

Lately, there has been so much going on between our two new families, it has been almost a blessing in that we have not fought. His girlfriend, my ex girlfriend, had a tubal pregnancy. And although it’s selfish of me to be hurt, I can’t help it. I have a knife in my heart. We even shared a hug at the loss of his child. Damn, I hate this. Sometimes I think fighting is easier. Easier on my heart at least. I don’t know.

I have had 2 minimal speaking exchanges with the ex and I didn’t get frustrated once. Even when he asked about the tax forms he keeps pushing me to sign. I totally held my cool and played him off like a tool for me to receive my children back. It was so much less stressful.