overcome my perfectionism

Just go with the flow, man.

so i’ve basically decided any one who has a problem with my below-minimum course load can go to hell. When I tell people i’m leaving early they say stuff like “ohh you’re so lucky” but i can SEE that look that means “slacker. you’re not getting into college.” and so then i say “haha. see you later” but i give THEM a look that means “FUCK YOU. it’s not lucky that my depression/anxiety keeps me from doing normal things like going to school.” And it feels so good to finally not care.

I realise that it’s better to try things and do badly than not to try at all, but i sometimes can’t help thinking of this as failing. Trying very hard with this one. I’ve been getting things done and the mistakes don’t feel as bad. Hmm.

i display many perfectionist traits and get angry at myself for not fulfilling my potential. I’m quite critical of myself and others and i’d like to get to the stage where i can accept that it’s ok to make mistakes.