nurture my inner child

And it is a strong feeling…an analogy…..I feel like the little dwarf in the video “Hall of the Moutain King” by Savatage….

You never heard of it….same principle….”The Hobbit”....when Bilbo was doing his burgular bit in Smaugs cave…

I’m surrouded by beautiful, valuable treasure…what will I look at….long for….reach for….touch….kiss….?.....

Such beautiful possibilities…..

on making drawings of myself – without trying to make myself look hideous for a change.

of a child inside you that you play with. My inner child is that part of my memories and brain that filter what I perceive and react when I am under stress. Introjection I think it is called. I need to provide to myself what I didn’t get emotionally as a child, so that I can react as an adult, not a hurt kid.

Could I act any more Infantile at times?.......Must control self better…........

Own place, I’m going to go buy the biggest set of lego’s I can find…................And buildbuildbuildbuildbuild…........I’ve always loved Lego’s

I need to do more to encourage this. Have fun, play a board game, watch the ants, go see a kids movie, get an ice cream cone, Play tag, hide and seek, capture the flag. Play music I like, sing in the car and shower, Tell stupid jokes, Be silly, tell stories, laugh until my sides hurt and tears run down my face. I don’t want to get old. Physically, it’s inevitable, but mentally…....... I want to always have a sense of fun and impishness…....Oh please let it happen