Finish what I start

I guess the goals that i have here must be goals that are very important to me in my life.

I will be joining a leadership programme soon, starts middle of this months. It will be 3 months of intensive hardcore confronting stuff.

This is my chance to make the most out of the course, and my chance to get rid of these goals, im freaking sick of staring at them. Day by day the goals are just mocking me. Do i need to wait for a million cheers before i start to act. do you need some divine intervention, a near death experience, wake up dude, f**king wake up already.

This is the opportunity, this is the “excuse” to start, this is where it will all begin. This is where the change happens, where you can transform, no one else can do it 4 u, no one, but u

Yes i shouldnt be hard on myself, but puck im not living forever.

I might not be able to finish all of them in 3 months, but i will stake my life on this, im going to give my all, time to get my hands dirty, time to be sweating with some tears and blood, no holding back, no regrets.

Just cant wait…..

how many things I’ve started and never finished. Things I’ve planned and never done, jotted ideas that I’ve never fulfilled, it’s kind of disappointing. It mostly surrounds my creative pursuits; writing, painting etc, which I miss doing .. so I’ve decided I’m definately going to start writing again, and I’ve already made some progress on chapter planning. Yay.

well i know its not friday but this one is a little different. since i didnt get this put up as a goal im going to do a little diddy about it. i got my bank acount today and it took everything in me to leave the house.

i had the worse stomach ache in the world and i was doing the bathrooom run in between checking myself over for important stuff.. but i found my self start making exscuses…im tired,oh i dont feel good..yadda yada ya…so it took all the talking up in the world to work my way out the door..

in times of lows disipline slips to the floor. i know i am capable of great achivements.but i know when im weak i wont do what i set out. then i get behind ..then im kicking myself for letting my routine fall apart..this is the conditioning i need to get the rest of these goals done.

but i want this life i have in my head. i will do it and i know somtimes i am going to have to work so fucking hard ot get there..i will have times im sick,or tired,or burned out. you know thats a constant..but the thing you are wanting to shoot for..can be done..if you make it happen…

so finish what i start

Finally started selling off things in my storage shed.

*Emily’s scarf
*My scarf
*Sara’s scarf
*Anne’s painting
*the drawing of Salome
*Fast Food Nation
*The short story I started last week that I think could definitely go somewhere
*collages in my journal…there are also entries that kind of trail off.

I have a lot of work in store for myself. Not to mention I am trying to find a job in between.

I need to mantain focus on the things that really matter…
Start and finish without procrastination!
I need forces to win the lazy!!!!

...I need to identify what I need to finish. Then I just need to finish them off. Seems simple but I always put things off. Argh.

I guess I’ll get started.. soon… xD

I bought a box and put all my stationary into that has been lying around. Much cleaner!

So technically, I started a book and I wanted to finish it. This year, I scratched that idea and started a whole new book idea. So atleast I’m kinda, sorta getting there =D That’s one topic out of…alot that I need to finish but atleast it’s a step.

Cleared out the top of my bedroom cupboard.

Posted computer CD to mother.

Sent letter.

Cleaned the inside of my bedside drawers and threw out anything that was old.

DONE.