say no

did it again – failed to say no.
what’s the consequence – 4 days work that I can’t get really excited about

completely failed to do this at work today. Said yes ‘cause it was easier for me to sort it out than leave it with someone else.
Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong

The past two people who came through my office didn’t listen when I told them NO. I’m trying to keep people from entering my office, no pleasantries, just “I need” and expecting me to jump. I work at a desk, and one guy asked, “Are you busy?” He looked shocked when I said, “Yes,” and continued typing an email. He said, “but you’re just sitting there,” and laughed. and stood there. waiting for me to acknowledge him again. He tried to hand me a USB drive and said,”You just need to print this out for me.”

That’s when I should have said NO!!!! and left the room. Instead, I said, “no, I’m not going to be able to print that out for you.” He just stood there. smiling at me. I ignored him until he went away to find someone else to print out his document.

Important Note: The guy isn’t my boss, isn’t my customer and isn’t typically so rude (so I didn’t know to run when he first entered the room.)

right now i am saying no to one person, so i guess that i am kinda’ doing this right now.

A whole discussion about using came up as a result of it.

I find it hard to say no because i always see how siple it is to do something for someone rather than all the obstacles… however when it comes to doing something for myself i only see things in reverse….how depressing right?

Well recently i’ve actually been trying to work on that….
I did art for two days hile still smoking and it felt so good, but then i jumped right back to complacency and here i am again.. mentally constipated.

Am i really fucked up in the head? Sometimes i feel that way. I just let things happen to me. Again as a result of another messed up theory. i believe in “just being” however, can two individuals just be without one encroaching on the other’s space? Without one having to make compromises for the other? or do both parties actually…is it possible for both parties to actually equally compromise but in different ways with both [arties actually recognishing that they are both compromising equally without a thought of “i am doing more” entering and taking over one’s thought pattern?

Are we humanly capable of that?...

how is it possible to say no to someone, something, oneself if you hold true to the idea of just being?........

AGAIN! .........COMPROMISES!.......

HOW DOES IT ALL WORK?

When are the lines drawn and who draws the lines and what couses the lines to be drawn?

Are questions and answers just like….can it be equated to desires and satisfaction?.....

SAY NO!........

I did not do this today. Got one more thing added to my TODOLIST at work…..

Why do I keep everyone’s priorities above mine… and so I end up saying yes to everyone!

Now I have this cousin at new city where I am moving to to join a course and find a job. He is looking for someone to become a housemate and share the rent. But I have some different plans. Since the way I have been such a goodie goodie guy, ready to abondon my own wishes for others, its looking so tough to say “no” because of he being my relative. Why should it be such a big deal?? The answer is because I am jobless right now, and pretty unstable in my career, and I dont feel that he is the person to go and stay with at a new place. So this is my first step towards doing away with my worst habit of not saying “No”. After giving any goddamn excuse, I will tell him, that I cant move in with him. Period.

Its rather easy, just say the word “no” or “nay” as I sometimes say.

And I am finding that I don’t have to feel guilty either.

It’s true that you have to often say it more than once. People will only hear what they want to, my guilt will kick in, and others will often try to change tactics to try to get me to do something.

I am also considering things more before I get involved in the first place.

I have said no or stood my ground quite well at work lately with great success. It feels good!

Want to say no to EVERYTHING that gets in the way of what I feel like doing!! :)