make a difference

Every day I am overwhelmed by the wants, needs, hurt, grief, joys, triumphs, etc. of the people around me; these feelings that permeate around them like a pungent perfume. Sometimes their fragrance is sweet as and other times it reeks.
It is not my charge to be concerned about all of humanity and the lives of my fellow man but it seems that my filter for life is a fragile…
I would like to find a healthy way for me to do my part in the world; to go to bed and know that I have tried to make a difference.

Sometimes I feel like I spread my resources too thin trying to give those around me an opportunity to help themselves.

It’s 12:42AM. I’m revamping this less than computer savvy friend’s resume wording 3 templates so they’re relevant to each field she applies at. Finding a job is hell for anyone right now, let alone a disabled, single mom doing it all on her own. For 2 straight weeks we’ve been driving around all over town, me just tagging along to keep her company and watch the the little one while she runs in and out of these businesses like wonder woman.

My eyes aren’t so bad I particularly need a Care Giver, but I qualify, so once that paperwork goes through the state will pay for her certification. After that she can take on other clients who could really benefit from someone as helpful as she since the most I’d want is rides to classes and appointments.

It means no Italy this summer that I’d been saving for these last 6 months, but I think renting a little house with her will be a good thing for everyone. She’ll have the kind of home she hopes for her 2 year old, and I’ll finally have a big enough space to host meditation workshops without it killing us both financially.

OK!
I think it’s time for bed… My brain is fried from all this cooperate America lingo.

There’s often times in people’s lives where we’re shown via the T.V., the news, and papers that our world – the cities in which we live each and every day – and on the brink of some or the other break down. Some collapse. And there’s this need inside that’s triggered, the need to act. To react rather. I decided that this need ought to have attention paid to it. And so I began. At first it was signing petitions on the WWF website, and feeding hungry children with just one click. Now I’ve signed up as a mentor for the Tomorrow Trust, and I hope to be able to provide guidance and council for someone who in turn will do the same for another. It really is a sort of ripply effect and all it needs to start with is you, and a step in the right direction.

Most of us will not be given an opportunity to do a lot of good at any one time or in any one moment.

So, you might focus on trying to do a little good as often as you can.

is it something you just know at the time?

An everyday influence. Being kind to strangers. Listening to others. Noticing the little things like picking up trash around a park or on the sidewalk. The best is influencing and encouraging children. Not just your own, but, their friends. You know you have it right when other children gravitate to you because of your openness, enthusiasm, different way of thinking. Being a foster parent would be wonderful, but, I can’t be “on” for a surprise inspection because the genius of teaching children is letting them and helping them follow what they are curious about, to the point that you’re still in your pajamas “learning” at dinner time. My most important contribution is that I have been important in the life of a child, whom has influenced others in kind.

Lets set up a proper project for a HIV/AIDS not-for-profit-org. Lets join this leadership course so theres an awesome framework for this goal.

There are at least 1000 hiv infected individuals here.

Yesterday was Fertile Ground’s 3rd meeting. I’m hoping this group takes the novel approach of taking action to their activism. We’re organizing a radio station, and youtube project for issues within Whatcom County. In my head it be amazing to have presence locally, involved in preservation of our little sanctuary as well as organize outreach projects.
This is all way off in the future, though.

In any case, I’m really excited about these sustainable build projects sprouting up all over the country, and finally going back to college for Sustainable Development.

Yesterday there were at least two occasions when I was thinking something positive that I was close to expressing but didn’t. I was right on the edge of just blurting out what I wanted to say but hesitated, and I think passing them by too quickly also left me feeling I missed the window of opportunity in a way, if that’s makes sense, though I know it’s never too late.

The two things I had wanted to say were:

1. You have really cool hair!
2. You look really pretty.

i want to help people. there is alot of things i can do but i just dont know were to start. :/ gotta start somewere i guesss.