I found an outstanding online dog trainer certification program through Animal Behavior College. I finished the theory part, but had to take a break because my family was breaking up and my son’s dad became unemployed etc etc….
My advisor found a mentor for me, but I have not yet contacted her because of the drama mentioned above. I think I’m feeling ready though. So, Monday, I’m going to contact both a local shelter/rescue in which to volunteer, and also my trainer/mentor.
The one thing I’m really struggling with is the following: I took in three dogs already—one was an adoption from the shelter, one was a rescue from dogsindanger.com who turned out to be a dog used for fighting. The most recent was a stray and clearly abused/neglected chihuahua. Before I found the chihuahua, I had fostered multiple dogs in the past six months, having up to five dogs at a time ranging from a doberman and a deaf boxer to little aussie-mix pups. I also took in four cats: one that was left on my doorstep, one that was severely abused, and two feral kittens.
The truth is, I took on too much, as far as animals are concerned. I am not currently fostering—in fact, the founder of the rescue for which I was fostering became upset with me because I had to ask her to take my foster back. He was a sweet guy but he peed in his crate every single morning.
Because of unexpected changes in my living and financial situation, an ADHD diagnosis of my son, and other curveballs, AND because the AMstaff has fought with multiple dogs and recently gave me stitches and crushed (slightly) the bone in my middle finger, I feel I have got to start paring down.
Chai, my adopted dog, is only a year old, she is a beautiful, red colored mix (she’s got a huge head like a rotti but she kind of looks like a lab/ pit cross)—I feel like she has the best chance of finding a good, loving, permanent home. She’s also the most expensive dog re: food & vet expenses. Sundae is going to be difficult to rehome because she is very strong and muscular, and has a history of major dog aggression. The Chihuahua is easy to care for, but she has not yet been vetted due to my financial limitations. She is also mean to my son, and she has even demonstrated some hostility to me over the past couple of days.
What I’m ultimately saying is, I feel like a hypocrite. How can I deserve a certification in dog training when I can’t even manage the dogs I have? When I’m considering rehoming them, in fact? My intentions were good, I really just wanted to save lives here—but as I said before, I got way in over my head.
Damn Cesar Millan makes it look so easy!
Any kind words would be much appreciated here…
:I