make a friend

That sounds kinda bad doesnt it? I picked up a card of a girl at the Williamsville Strawberry Social (HA) for an insurance quote. I called today and we ended up talking about weight watchers, animals (especially programs that spay and neuter ferals and strays) and yoga. It was really nice talking to someone new and seeing what the world holds for someone else in their own little world. My whole life I have always watched people walk down the street and wondered what their life was like, amazed that they had no idea about mine. Cool really.
But anyway, her name is Jen and she is married with 3 kids and said she would call me with my quote and to chit chat again. I said that sounds great.

I thought I had friends, but really, I have aquaintances or buddies. I had good friends and we keep in touch because we all moved away, but living here, I have no one I can call and talk to, go get coffee with or just chat with. Its kind of lonely. I realize the older I get, even just 1 good woman friend would be awesome. My last good friend got married and now of course has no time.
I would take a guy friend, I had quite a few of good guy friends and a guy best friend until he moved, but there are still some things that are hard to talk about with guys.
I feel like Im the new girl in grade school and trying to make friends.

I can talk to about anything
Doesn’t threten me, even if they think it’s for my own good
Doesn’t look down on me
Doesn’t ask too many questions
Is easy to talk to.

but I would like to find someone who will:
1)Not ask me to go gambling!
2)Not just accept my faith but help me grow in it
3)Someone who will not always try to make me feel better, but give me a truth when I need to hear it

simple and plain.. never had any real ones. they always flaked on me or turned out to be someone completely different then what i expected. i consider myself to be an excellent friend but my oportunites to make them are few and far between. and when the opportunity does present itself…it never goes any longer than a year… and thats the longest. i think i set myself up for failure though because i get in over my head when i first meet them thinking this is gonna be great were gonna be buddies. but their expectations are always just either not caring to be friends or not wanting to put forth the effort to start a friendship. i dont want just ‘friends’ i desire wholesome, godly friendships that last a lifetime.

i need a friend that i want to share my dream with. i am a student studying electrical and electronics.

a real, genuine friend. they’re hard to find. hopefully over the summer i can make one and actually have a friendship that lasts.

I want to make a friend that I don’t hate. I never hang out with the ‘friends’ I have now, and I don’t want to…They annoy me and I just don’t like being around them..I want to make a friend that I can actually have fun with..hmm..

Today I want to meet someone and become their friend.

So, I’ve got debilitating social anxiety and I stopped talking to all my friends, stopped going to school, stopped leaving the house, etc. Now I’m trying to get my life on track, and I figure a good first step is making a good friend. It’ll actually be really hard, all things considered, but hell it’ll be worth it to be, like, normal. And happy.