Care less about my appearance

i feel like this goal is a weird one for me..i have accomplished it in so many ways..but in other ways i haven’t. I honestly really do enjoy getting ready and having my hair look nice as well as my makeup and my clothes. but for me..it’s just because i enjoy doing it for myself..not for others. I mean..yeah..sometimes i want to look good for others..but not the majority of time. I’m not as obsessed as I once was about looking like the models and the gorgeous actresses on tv. I care less about my appearance in that i don’t always have to be ready to go out to the supermarket or to the post office like i once was…and i certainly don’t care about looking my best in front of my closest friends and my boyfriend..so i think i’m going to mark this as done..but if i do start to obsess again..put it right back on here!

i need to stop watching America’s Next Top Model .i have been getting worse with this goal the more i watch this show!! i want to be gorgeous like those girls on there..
ugh. not going to happen..so i need to just work on becoming more confident and accepting who i am and what i look like.

having a boyfriend makes me care less about my appearance..
i think because before when i was single i was more so doing it to get a guy or so i could look attractive..but now that im dating a really really amazing guy..i dont care as much..dont get me wrong..i still care way more than i should..but ive been alot better.

i was talking to one of my roommates
and she randomly mentioned how it seems like im more confident in my appearance these days and that i dont care /obsess as much.

that was so encouraging to hear that she noticed!

i wore my hair curly..like it is naturally..which i NEVER do..because i think it looks bad.

also..i woke up late the next morning and didnt have time to shower so normally i would have just skipped my class to get ready..but i decided to go to class unshowered and somehow everyone said i looked cute that day. weird. and then i didnt feel like getting ready yesterday so i wore my hair curly again..and wore it up and with my glasses.

it doesnt sound like a big deal..but it is..3 things i never do because im self conscious for whatever reason..wear my hair naturally curly..wear my hair up..and wear my glasses.

soo..it was a VERY good week for me.

i had a test that i really needed to study for..and i was tempted to use the time to get ready..but i decided..who cares..after the test im done..so..i didnt shower and put on a hat and was ready to go..

small accomplishment..but..an accomplishment nonetheless.

im only more focused on it than i was before.

Have realised that somehow I have acheived this goal!

I think going to the gym has really helped – it often seems daft to do hair and make up just to workout so I am getting more comfortable leaving the house without my slap.

This week I have been to the following places without make up and pulled back hair: gym, doctors, nutritionalist, nursery, supermarket and the chemist!

Considering it was not long ago that I would spend an hour getting ready just to cross the road to post a letter – there was no way I would of contemplated meeting a new person or bumping into someone I knew without being preened and perfect. Now I realise that people don’t even particularly seem to notice!

So I’m marking this one complete! Yay!

i used to not care so much..but lately it seems all i care about is having cute outfits, nice hair, perfect makeup. i barely ever used to wear makeup! i honestly think it comes down to my insecurities concerning guys..i want them to notice me. and i know better than that..i know that looks dont determine anything. and i know that my personality is far more revealing about me than my looks. but i dont know i care so much these days..and i dont know how to stop this. i mean..its good to care to a certain extent..but i find myself caring way too much and spending far more time in front of the mirror than i used to..and then getting frustrated because i hate what i see. its a vicious cycle.

My husband’s show director popped by to drop off some bits for him but he was at work. I had to invite him in and have a conversation with him …. wearing my pjs, not a dot of make-up and scraped back hair!

I think I coped with it okay until I beame conscious halfway through the conversation that I was not wearing a bra!! Argh!