Survive until Friday

I have just to get through to 4pm tomorrow to achieve this goal and the last 4 hours of that will be spent on trains. Phew! I made it through work today without getting too stressed.
Just this evening to get through now – I’m going to be brave in a minute and try to do some uni work. If I get stressed I’ll stop and make a cup of tea.

Well I made it to Wednesday night :-) I’m going to be gentle with myself tonight. A relaxing bath, a bit of mindless TV and an early night with a hot drink and a book (not a uni one!). I’m aiming for bed by 10.30 and asleep by 11.
I hope I don’t wake up in the early hours though. Might be an idea to have a contingency plan for that. Ok if I wake up through the night I will try to get back to sleep for no more than 20 mins. If I fail I will get up, make a cup of herb tea, put the World Service on the radio and listen for half an hour. Then I’ll try to go back to sleep. If it is later than 5.30 I’ll get up and do some uni work and accept that I’ll need another early night tomorrow.

S : specific – yes, I need only get through to Friday without giving up on job, degree, or life in general.

M : measurable – yep if I make it to Friday with all of the above in tact I’ve done it.

A: achievable – hmm, I hope so. You can do something for a few days that you can’t imagine doing for longer. Perhaps that will help.

R: relevant – very!

T: timed – yes.

Surviving the job and the degree seems to be getting harder all the time. The stress levels are mounting already and it’s only 2 weeks into term. I really don’t know how I’m going to achieve this goal and get what I want.

I seem to be close to tears quite a lot of the time. I have realised today how unhappy I am about the way my job has changed in the last two years. I used to have much more autonomy in how I worked with children. There was less group work, less supporting the teacher, more 1-1, more scope for creative problem solving. If it was still like that then I could choose something within my job role for my action enquiry. But it isn’t. I differentiate less work now. I’m in constant motion at work trying to keep up with all the new paperwork, IEP target tracking sheets are the latest.