stop worrying so much about what i look like

When will I ever get over this feeling of being ugly. I tend to think everyone except ME on this planet is beautiful.
I just can’t seem to stop worrying about this…. :(

Through some random wandering about the interwebs, I found Jessica Weiner. Where has she been all my life? I’m reading her book, ” Do I look Fat in This”, and it has really given me some great perspective. She encourages people to start living life now, not after you lose weight or get the perfect job. She also makes mention of the fact that being healthy is not tied to a specific size or body shape. Makes sense, but I never really thought about that in any meaningful way before.

For all the talking I do about being comfortable with who I am, and how I look, the truth is I’ve been waiting to lose weight for my life to take off. I always imagined I’d have the perfect __ when I lost weight. Ms. Weiner has definitely inspired living my life, truly, right now.

I realise this one is tough. I’ve to keep making conscious efforts to not let my physical appearance dictate my mood, behaviour and attitude. This is one goal where I’ve to keep pushing myself…all the time!

i actually have started to care less
when i first added this goal my appearance was like an obsession… whenever i didnt look good i just felt like screaming and i felt so ‘eurgh’

but im coming to not care as much and realise my personality matters more..
but still i could do better. im always judging people on appearances, or thinking about my hair still. hopefully i can stop :)

recently ive just i dunno not cared as much… it doesnt mean i dont care anymore i just not as obsessed. i dont want to get to the point where i dont care at all about what i look like, i just dont want to worry so much about it

most of the time, when im thinking, its about what i look like; im seriously obsessed… if im having a bad hair day i feel like i dont want to do anything… i just want to stay indoors.
i know inner beauty is what counts but?!? living in the world today, people wont like you if your butt ugly.

I need to remind myself this over and over..everyday. Why is it that I cant seem to get over this! I know…looks don’t matter…it’s the inner beauty that counts..and all that crap. But still…who am I kidding. When someone looks at you, they see you..the so-called outer superficial self. They obviously would have no idea as to what you are really like. But they judge you by the the way you look. And if you don’t pass that preliminary test, you most probably don’t stand a second chance. Life IS unfair…and that’s something I know now for sure.

if only…

A few days ago, I was having a really bad hair day (if you are a gal, you’d know how I feel :D) and that somehow affects me more than anything and it actually makes me grumpy the whole day. So anyway I was at the bus stop feeling not-so-good when I met this old couple. Eventually the bus came along and I said goodbye to them. But before leaving the old woman turned to me and said..”you have a wonderful glow to you…dont ever lose it.”
I was like…awww..how sweet. I thought how could I possibly be glowing when I was all frumpy and grumpy.
I realised then that all of us have our own beauty (inner/outer)...but then probably not everyone’s gonna notice it.
And the key thing to remember is that beauty is defined by who you are rather than how perfect your body/hair/clothes are.
And THAT is something I need to remind myself everyday.

I dont really worry about this too much but I do tend to think about it often. At the end of the day…you do get judged by the way you look…no matter how brainy or smart you are.
“It’s the inner beauty that counts” they say. But seriously…how many people can actually see the person inside you when they meet you?!