have a healthy relationship with food

I have a horrible relationship with food. I have an eating disorder that causes my sense of well-being to simply collapse.

I am going to learn to do this, by meeting tomorrow morning with a dietician and nurse as part of an eating disorder program.

This is the first step for me; they can help me come to have a better relationship, a healthy one, with food.

I need this, and I look forward to talking to them.

What is normal???

I’m tired of having distorted thinking patterns.

i’m slipping
i don’t want to slip

need to eat healthily and regulary!!!!

getting better.
document improvement… evidence you have done it, that you can do it!

that this is the focus. I swear what you focus on only gets bigger. So I am going to focus on the solution…I want more than anything to have a healthy relationship with food.

i am not at all in control of what i eat. when i am busy and happy in my life i literally forget all about food. i eat healthily and don’t have any desire to eat more than is necessary. but when i am lonely or bored i find myself seeking comfort in food…and then taking it that one step further and punishing myself with food. i used to not care about dieting, but recently i have put on weight because i went through a difficult time in my life. now i obsess about everything that goes into my mouth. i tell myself that i need to lose weight and diet and that means that when i decide to eat something like chocolate i go way overboard…telling myself that it is the last time i ever eat it…as if i have to over-indulge just to get it out of my system…the problem is that i am kidding myself…i need to learn to be able to buy a bar of chocolate and just eat one piece. i wish i could just go back to the way i was when food wasn’t even an issue.

plan meals, don’t eat when you’re not hungry, find another outlet for boredom, stop stressing, just feed yourself properly.
hoping motivation will meet me at the doorstep any day now…

this is the key to much discontent in my life these days. it’s a constant struggle &when i get weak it all turns out horribly &ends up destroying all my hard work at the gym.