(What is RSS?)I am going to learn to do this, by meeting tomorrow morning with a dietician and nurse as part of an eating disorder program.
This is the first step for me; they can help me come to have a better relationship, a healthy one, with food.
I need this, and I look forward to talking to them.
What is normal???
i was walking home with a girl that i like here (there’s not many of those) and she reminds me so much of myself when i was messin with jeremy and when i was in chicago. i told her i was on a new diet where i didnt consume more than 1200 calories a day. she asked how much i normally consumed… i said probably 2000. she said she doubts she ever even makes it to 1000 every day. she doesnt eat. ever. and she works out every day. she’s super super skinny but still isnt happy. she gave me some tips on eating to lose weight. i’ve already given up something i really love (pasta) and now i think i’m going to give up soda. pasta itself has made a huge difference. she also says i should give up the bagels i eat every morning. she suggested i eat just lettuce with a boca burger/chicken patty in between. it’s sad that as women, we strive to look this way society has made us believe is sexy and acceptable by giving up things we love and starving and eating like rabbits. was i really this stressed out about food when i was tiny? i just thought i never thought about food and that i became accustomed to being sick to my stomach. i dunno. what’s more sad is that if this is what i need to do to get back to how i was, i’m on board :(
getting better.
document improvement… evidence you have done it, that you can do it!
i think about all the food i can eat to make it better. last time i checked, that wasnt healthy
my makes me sick. i feel sick all the time because i dont have access to food like i did back home. yeah, i do have access to a cafe and have money on my id but having to walk through they wave of 98lb girls kinda makes my appetite go away.
i was doing really well with this but then started comparing myself to other females again. as long as i look at myself and base my opinions on what i really think instead of how i rank verses another girl, i’ll be ok. that’s just hard.
that this is the focus. I swear what you focus on only gets bigger. So I am going to focus on the solution…I want more than anything to have a healthy relationship with food.
i;m feeling a lot bettr about food bc i have been going to the gym every day. i know that as long as i keep working about, i can pretty much eat whatever i want. i may not be able to eat a lot of it or at midnight, but i’m okay with that.
