go after what I want

Sooo worth it!:)

This is so empowering! And this site, along with ‘The Secret’ philosophy have helped me to do this. First, I had to decide exactly what it is that I want. It’s an ongoing journey, but keeping lists of goals is all that really takes. This site helps because it makes you accountable and there’s a support system involved. The feeling you get from achieving a goal is so fabulous, it makes you crave more…

I’m not going after anything anymore. I’ll go after whats realistic but When it comes after guys Forget it. I just hate guys at the moment. The only problem is I cant be gay because I like guys guys are hot but I hate the way they fucking act. Oh GOD THEY PIS ME OFF!!

wow. well i definetly tried to do this one drunken night. I was at a party and started hitting on this guy everything was going really good but after a couple more drinks i suddenly blurted out so when are we gonna make out? he said that he barely knew me and i left. well for about an hour this stupid game went on where his friend would come over to me and talk to me and then go to him and talk to him “about us”..and reportedly he was a shy guy and likes to go slowly and im i geuss the opposite..well things didnt work out after a few more drinks..well i think i just forgot about him and his little elementary school ways. but anyways made out with his friend instead, and got what i wanted in the end.

well the guy at my work is still so amazingly cute. Yesterday we had a pretty cool time at work. He gave me his email address and we talked on msn, for a while, and out of no where hes like i think your very attractive.. and it went on from there me telling him i think hes so hot. Durring work he was in the middle of asking me what I was going to do after work and I could tell he was going to ask me to chill, but we got interrupted. Today was okay at work with him, we talked a lot but I really didnt know what to talk about with him, i hope he dosnt lose interest or anythoing, i can tell he is really popular with girls, and i hate it. i really got to make more of an effort without starting to seem desperate!!

at my work theres a new guy..that is soooooo amazingly, gorgeously, cute. After only one day of meeting each other were getting along pretty well… i just got to keep trying not to be shy because he seems like a shy guy and if were both shy then nothing will ever happen and then one of the other girls will snatch him up. so got to go after him.

Well since finding out yesterday that Mike goes to my school, I have not seen him ANYWHERE?! I even asked around if someone new him, but I geuss because hes new nobody really knows him. I dont know where he goes at lunch or anything. I know where his english class is, so I geuss I am going to have to hang out around their until I find him!! I really need to find him so I can talk to him before I lose my nerve.

Alot of the time I dont go after what I want to happen in my life. For example, guys. I really want to get to know them better, but I end up talking myself out of it, thinking they will never like me, but then when the chance is completly gone I find out that they like me to but were to shy to say anything. The reason I have decided to go after what I want is because I finally have another chance. A guy that I used to like now goes to the same school as me! (ITs such a small world) I havnt seen him in about 3 years, and I really want to talk to him more and try and hangout with him, the last time I saw him he though I was hot so hopefully he still thinks so. THis will really take me out of my comfort zone because the guy is usually the one to get to know me , but it will be good for me, and hopefully we will end up dating, but if we just end up as good friends than it was worth it anyways.